[kal1995]

I interviewed for all job today that, going in, I was under the impression was part time because they described it as "student friendly" (I'm going to school online full time). Turns out, nope! It's full time, and I won't find out if I got it until tomorrow but my mind refuses to shut up about what I should do. So this is my little scream of frustration into the void:

Pros:
-I would be out of the house while the husband is at work, which is when my depression is the worst (I'm able to make it shut tf up when he's home so I don't make him worry. When he's not home, I'm a complete wreck)
-Extra $$$ (money is a huge contributor to my every day anxiety since I'm not currently working)

Cons:
-Going to school full time online while working full time will make me want to scream and rip my hair out
-Basically no quality time with the husband because when I'm not at work, I'll be studying, doing homework, eating, or sleeping
-Husband just got back from deployment, so all I want to do is spend time with him

I have the wonderful tendency of not knowing my limits and not knowing when to say when. I always think I can handle it until I've lost *all* my marbles.

I can see this job as being great in that I'll be so busy I won't have time to stop and realize how jacked I am mentally, but I can also see it as being the catalyst to me crashing and burning under the stress.

Maybe the answer will come to me in the morning. Fingers crossed. But if anyone has two cents to throw in, I would greatly appreciate it.

[kkrrhh]

Hmm... I'd say it really depends on whether you're someone who truly tends to benefit from staying super busy, or whether doing too much tends to be bad for your mental health (I know I'm definitely the crash and burn type, ha).

I'd also ask, would you have interviewed for the job if you knew it wasn't just part time/were you considering full time before? Don't feel pressured to take the job just because you've interviewed, if you don't think it's a good choice for you otherwise.

Good luck.

[Rohag]

Difficult decision... And your spouse has just returned from deployment.

Do you have local support?
Just for reference: Military OneSource

[JustJace2u]

I work full time and go to school part time, it's rough.

[Fuzzybear]

[kal1995]

Thank you all so much for all of your support.
Just as a little update, I decided not to take it. If I did, I wouldn't be able to try to get in to see a psych like I want to.