[dyanor453]

I feel like literally nothing has a point or use anymore.
Sometimes I hate myself and I feel like hurting myself physically.
I really like love but it has allays disappointed me and made me feel worse.
I never hug anyone or receive love I don' t know if thats normal but anyway.. I don't "love" my parents or ever miss them, not that they are bad parents but I' d rather be alone allways. (Was born without siblings)
I could keep writing but the point is that I don' t see a point in anything anymore I sometimes hate myself for how I look or am not that I look bad but you know what I mean.
Sometimes I wan't to die just for small things like not understanding lessons. which makes me feel so useless and empty.. I wish there would be someone that would love me as much as I love her, something like that. but that thought t doesn' t allways help me.

sorry for the long post

[Skeezyks]

Hello dyanor453: I'm sorry you are feeling so empty & self-hating. I was also an only child. My parents are both deceased. But I would have to say I didn't really love, or miss, them either. I have always preferred to be left alone. In fact, at this point in my life (I'm an older person now) I do live a pretty reclusive lifestyle.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

P.S. Your post was not too long...

[Fuzzybear]

[Fizzyo]

I'm sorry you're struggling so much,

People here have helped me through some dark times and I hope you get as much encouragement from this community as I have.

[Sula B]

I am sorry to hear that you are experiencing this. This is a place that I have found very accepting and where you can talk without others making judgements. Please keep posting as there are many who can understand you here and you will at the very least be heard.