[Candle in the wind]

My first post in this forum. I will just rant cause i dont even know where to start.
Day2 of feeling low, i don't like this feeling, i just feel horrible, I have friends, family but i dont want to call them because i feel they won't be able to handle me and my emotions. They are not used to this behaviour of mine. I have always been the one people turned to, i kept their secrets safe, loyal and always willing to lend support. I guess because i am in the "helping " field, they think i have the tools to figure it out.....
ummmm, no, i dont....not right now. I feel tired, helpless, tearful, sad, unmotivated and i suppose ashamed at the way i feel.
I want validation and know it's ok to feel the way i feel. I am tired of responses like , oh well, we all go through it, that sucks or can i get back to you? i am kinda busy.....wtf!!
This allows me to shut down all together.
All i need is just someone to hear me out...listen to my words and not just the music.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Candle: The Skeezyks sends hugs with the hope that you will be able to find deep peace within...

[JustJace2u]

You've definitely come to the right place.

[Fuzzybear]

[Unrigged64072835]

It's okay to feel depressed. It's okay to feel what you feel. I do hope that you get to the bottom of this and feel better soon.

[feeshee]

You will find understanding and support here.

[LeeeLeee]

Acknowledge that these days of healing ebb and flow and know that you will find yourself because you are trying. Big giant hugs my friend. -Lele

[KarkiOxygen]

Originally Posted by Candle in the wind

My first post in this forum. I will just rant cause i dont even know where to start.
Day2 of feeling low, i don't like this feeling, i just feel horrible, I have friends, family but i dont want to call them because i feel they won't be able to handle me and my emotions. They are not used to this behaviour of mine. I have always been the one people turned to, i kept their secrets safe, loyal and always willing to lend support. I guess because i am in the "helping " field, they think i have the tools to figure it out.....
ummmm, no, i dont....not right now. I feel tired, helpless, tearful, sad, unmotivated and i suppose ashamed at the way i feel.
I want validation and know it's ok to feel the way i feel. I am tired of responses like , oh well, we all go through it, that sucks or can i get back to you? i am kinda busy.....wtf!!
This allows me to shut down all together.
All i need is just someone to hear me out...listen to my words and not just the music.

I know how it feels . I am also a kind of person who always play the role of "listener" among friends. I know its hard , but try to find the way to take care of yourself from now on. Try not to care about what other people think. (Hug)

[Sula B]

Hi Candle, I am sorry you are feeling this way but I can relate as I have always been the 'fixer' in many of what I thought were friendships. What I know now (many years later) is that those who are needy and who are users are attracted to people like you and me. Please don't wait until you are 40 to start to learn to say no. There is nothing selfish about saying it - nothing at all. What I have found is that the true friends I have (who are few) want nothing from me - nothing what so ever - other than company and laughs.

Thinking of you.