[gonegirl99]

I posted a thread about whether or not I should stay in a shelter or stay with my stupid asshole father. Most people were saying stay at a shelter. I was planning on doing that until the ***** called and said I have a job interview with Walmart. I got the job and am saving money so I can escape his toxicity. I am 24 years old and feel like a child who could not get away from this idiot's madness.

I feel physically sick being around him. The only good thing is that the degenerate is gone on the weekdays so I have time to be by myself and feel better. But on the weekends, this ***** is always finding ways to make me feel bad. I know it has nothing to do with me because I walk on eggshells around here! I heard the fool call me a heifer name under his breath this morning. For no ****ing reason at all!!

Because I've been through being bullied etc. I feel sometimes like attacking people. I really want to hurt him but I'm not a guy nor am I physically stronger. He's never touched me but I wish someone would knock him out or give him a dose of his own medicine.

HOW DO I COPE WITH THIS? I've never been in a situation like this that was really toxic because I didn't grow up this idiot. It's really HELL everytime he's around.

[Michelea]

I am a little confused as to what you are asking. The title asks if you are a coward for staying. Then the post says that you are going to move out after saving some money, so you won't be staying.

[gonegirl99]

Originally Posted by Michelea

I am a little confused as to what you are asking. The title asks if you are a coward for staying. Then the post says that you are going to move out after saving some money, so you won't be staying.

Meaning should I endure this to just save money or should I leave because emotional wellbeing is more important even if I have to be homeless.

[Michelea]

Are there any other options besides those two? Another family member perhaps?

Sorry you are dealing with this. Are there ways that you can get away during the weekend like volunteering for the weekend shifts (take your days off while he is at work), hang out with a friend during the weekend, or go to the library. You're not a coward if you are being an extreme saver and eventually move out.

[MtnTime2896]

I understand the anger and the rage towards him. The thing is, you either have to get that under control, leave or avoid him as much as possible. Take it from me, and I think I know quite a bit about this, giving in to the rage only increases its hold on you. Do you want to tighten the grip until you can't breathe or do you want to find a way to save yourself from it?
You're not a coward, you're smart. You'll figure this out.