[atpoes]

Hi, I'm 22 y.o
My mom passed away when I was really young. I was raised mainly by my grandma because both of my parents were working. After my mom passed away, my dad got married again. It was all good.
When I was a bit older, I got some issues at home. I don't feel like trusting anyone in my family anymore. Mainly it was because some things I experienced while growing up. My step mom tends to step on my privacy. My dad was verbally abusive I think when I was young. He also wouldn't let me meet my mom's family. I don't know the reason until now.
I think I have a trauma about trusting people in my family now. I don't feel safe and I keep thinking about moving out. I also think that maybe I've been depressed for a while. I don't want to talk to my family. I tend to stay in my toom all day, watching series or reading books. I don't want to tell them my day or my problem because I simply don't trust them.
There was even one day when my aunt called my step mom as a traitor. Sometimes I'm scared of starting a new relationship too because there was something happened in the past that also had something to do with my family. What should I do?
I can't tell my dad's family because i don't trust them. I can't tell my mom's family because i never really talk to them and my dad wouldn't approve if i do it. I can't talk to my step mom's family too because come on... are you serious? I'm not even close with her and I never talk to them since forever.

[Skeezyks]

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[Fuzzybear]

What you describe sounds stressful and isolating but I am glad your posting conveys a sense of humor: "I can't talk to my step mom's family too because come on... are you serious?" --Do you have the opportunity to go to a therapist? If you don't, you can post here. It is anonymous, though, if it is a really personal secret I understand your hesitation. But it is still helpful to discuss your feelings here. And I am so sorry about your mom. I know it was a long time ago but it was still really unfortunate! But you sound like your thinking is quite rational. It sounds like you have been forced to isolate due to how your family reacts. Maybe moving out would help your depression? Of course, maybe you still might be depressed after moving out but sometimes I think it helps when we control the things that can be controlled. Sincerely, Myst