[MtnTime2896]

*Posted this on the SoA forum, as well but thought it fit here too.

I've danced around this topic on several occasions but thought I'd actually talk about it.

Rage - (often called fury or frenzy) is a feeling of intense, violent, or growing anger.

This is an emotion that has consumed my life. It's consumed my state of being and my interaction with the world. It's the one emotion, as far back as early childhood, I have felt persistently. I can be happy and still have anger boiling below the surface. I can be sad, and still the feeling of intense rage remains. Every now and then, it's exposed like an open wound to salt. It burns and takes full control of my attention. So, I chain it and surround it with steel and iron; cage it up so that it will never be used, again.
I don't think that people quite understand, or they underestimate just how angry I always am. I'm always at that level that a normal person would only feel during an intense argument right before it turns into an actual physical fight. I'm always there. Yet, and this is strange; according to people around me I'm the most uncontroversial person they know. They think that it's nearly impossible to upset me. Little do they know, right?

Does anyone else on here feel like this, or at least understand it? I really feel like I'm alone in this.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Short fuse but very hard to light.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

Short fuse but very hard to light.

Exactly.

[Humpty Dumpty]

I don't struggle with it to the extent you do but it is always there below the surface. It's like it is a slow simmer & turn up the heat just a little bit then it quickly boils over. For me I tend to lose my temper with video games more. I guess because it's frowned upon for me to take out my rage on people.

[MtnTime2896]

Yeah, that tends to be society's standing. Haha, that made me laugh, I don't know why. I don't hold back when it comes to video games, either.