[Jadenmia1]

I get up everyday, I get dressed, run my errands. I tend to my children all the time, their needs are met, mine are for the most part.
Yet, I feel completely empty. I'm lonely, their is a physical pain in my chest because I'm so lonely. My husband probably makes me feel even more lonely than I already do ..
I can't afford daycare to be able to work, I have no education, no money to get an education.

I feel just.. Empty.

I eat well, muster up the energy to stay active, I drink lots of water and take good care of myself and appearance. I write in a journal, and keep busy.

The tears feel like they are at the back of my throat all the time. I'm so unhappy it's unbearable but I feel like I can't change anything.

Just needed to get it out of my head.

[Yzen]

You can change.

For me, the emptiness is a feeling of something missing or a feeling that what I do from day to day isn't in agreement with the person I believe I am. I have approached it by being curious about everything in search of things that will cause a 'spark' in me. Sometimes looking at a task that seems uninteresting from a different viewpoint can make it come more alive.

[unhappydaze]

Originally Posted by Jadenmia1

The tears feel like they are at the back of my throat all the time. I'm so unhappy it's unbearable but I feel like I can't change anything.

Please cry here any time. I don't know about others but it helps me knowing I'm not the only one despairing from the feelings of futility and loneliness.

[eliz214]

I understand.. I feel the same way often.. Like a feeling of unfulfillment and emptiness inside. What makes it worse is when i question "why am i feeling this way.. I shouldn't feel lonely when i have people around me." try not to judge yourself. And keep reaching out for support..it always helps to know that you're not alone in feeling this way

[bugbear83]

Someone said that it better to be alone rather than be around others who make you feel lonely...

[Fuzzybear]

[LucyG]

Are you on any meds? If not, the amino acid DLPA [DL-phenylanaline] would be something to try as it's used by the brain to produce dopamine and norepinephrine. Both neurotransmitters are what make life worth living, and without adequate in the brain, life is utterly hopeless. I take this for the depressive side of my bipolar 2, and find that so long as I take it, life is good. If I don't, the hopelessness reappears in my life.

Here's a brain function questionnaire that will show you what neurotransmitters and related amino acids are related to which emotions and feelings.

http://drjolee.com/Brain-Function-Questionnaire.pdf

[Jadenmia1]

Thank you all so much for the kind words. I agree it's better to be alone than with people who make you feel lonely. I just don't feel like leaving my husband will help my case right now

I'm having a particularly bad day today. Unhappy AND not functional. I am on meds for panic attacks, just lorazepam. But it makes me feel even more depressed .. Like today I had to take one and I'm just too tired to function. I hate them

I would like to try anything that's not medication form, so Thankyou il check that out!

I do feel utterly hopeless. I'v cried a lot today.