Feeling guilty

Not a friend but my drug dealer, he wasn't a bad person, he had dreams like everyone else. I was taken to the police office after been caught with a friend smoking weed, I don't really have many places and my wife hates it, it is not like I wanted to get caught, although it was very stupid to do that since it could have been avoided . I had more grams than allowed by law, the penalty in my country can be several years in prison. They took my phone and checked my messages, my photos, everything, they made me feel miserable for several hours, they made sure that I was convinced that I was doomed, they liked it... such a sick feeling.

I don't really thinks it is fair to punish these kinds of activities, I don't see any difference between drugs from the point of view they all can be addictive, it is you who choose to take them and the only responsible to do it right without interfering your life.

I think it is wrong to sell drugs from the point of view that you can be indirectly responsible of creating an addiction, ideally I think it should exist a kind of permission based on a psychological exam to determinate whether or not you should be allowed to do drugs. It is not however the way we were raised, alcohol (which is poison for my stomach) is sold everywhere without law restrictions, particularly in my country it is not even that hard to get if you are underage.

Cops where really unprofessional, they even shouted a girl who was selling candys on the streets with her 10 year-old son "Move that sweet fat ***!" . I hate the system for being stupid, irrational and so stone age. I hate myself for turned in man who didn't deserve it, I hate myself for blaming the system when it was originally my fault, I knew the rules, I should've been better than that to avoid all this nonsense.

Hello & Welcome, Bundysremarks2. Please feel free to ignore these questions:
When did you start to use weed?
What was going on in your life at that time?

I'm sorry the police treated you - and others - so poorly.

Please make yourself at home here.

hi bundys.....what are you feeling guilty about...

Addictions, of any kind, are always a struggle.. don't blame yourself too much for it And I'm sorry for what happened at the police station.