I think i've figured something outt

why my suicide attempts never work?

Possible trigger:

I think god has punnished me by making me emortal, and i'm not sure what to do about it. I really don't want to live forever, and I know people know that.

perhaps because my life's been wasted so much, I have to live here forever?

perhaps, in order to escape/ die, I have to do something.
but what. I have nothing.

[Rohag]

Hello, Shattered Sanity.

Elsewhere you posted:

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

no one in the real world is really taking their time to listen, I'm invalidated

I wish that weren't the case, but all my wishing won't change anything. Further, all my "listening" as an internet forum phantom cannot be enough.

Still, I'm ready to listen, and I wish you some small measure of relief today.

[SvanThor]

I promise you're not immortal. Everyone dies.

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sorry I too wish I was gone (and I'm "old"..). I sometimes also feel I'm being "punished" . But I promise you, neither of us are immortal

[LucyG]

Don't worry, you aren't immortal.

Originally Posted by SvanThor

I promise you're not immortal. Everyone dies.

well then,

it best be soon, because i'm starting to doubt

thanks for the reply!

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello, Shattered Sanity.

Elsewhere you posted:

I wish that weren't the case, but all my wishing won't change anything. Further, all my "listening" as an internet forum phantom cannot be enough.

Still, I'm ready to listen, and I wish you some small measure of relief today.

I knew i shouldn't have posted that. I knew some people would find it confusing.

what I meant to say was, (and i'm going to rephrase this)

people outside internet forums. people who can actually be their with you and reasure you.

I by no means meant I was ungreatful for the members here

you're all wonderful

(((((hug))))

[Rose76]

I bet you are a fairly young person. Young people tend to have a hard time really believing that life won't just keep going on and on.

The truth is that you are not immortal. Someday your life will be over, though probably not anytime soon. Your attempts at suicide didn't result in death because either the means wasn't lethal enough, or you were given medical attention before the method could succeed. Most likely, you are deeply unhappy, but not entirely sure you want to leave this life. It may be that you want to communicate/express your profound dissatisfaction with how your life seems to you.

I'm sorry you feel this bad. It must be awful. Get yourself whatever support you can. Therapy might help you to turn things around. Life can be pretty miserable at times. But you have more power to change that than you are giving yourself credit for.

[amulet]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I bet you are a fairly young person. Young people tend to have a hard time really believing that life won't just keep going on and on.

The truth is that you are not immortal. Someday your life will be over, though probably not anytime soon. Your attempts at suicide didn't result in death because either the means wasn't lethal enough, or you were given medical attention before the method could succeed. Most likely, you are deeply unhappy, but not entirely sure you want to leave this life. It may be that you want to communicate/express your profound dissatisfaction with how your life seems to you.

I'm sorry you feel this bad. It must be awful. Get yourself whatever support you can. Therapy might help you to turn things around. Life can be pretty miserable at times. But you have more power to change that than you are giving yourself credit for.

Well said. Thanks for the clarity. It helps.

[amulet]

I thought the same a very long time ago. No longer. It is a gift.

[Artchic528]

No, you're not immortal. You've just got something deep down inside of you that won't give up, that refused to die. Maybe it's so small that it's more a gut feeling, a reaction, than anything, but it's there. What is this thing you hold within you? Hope, the reluctance to give up.

With life, there is always hope, no matter how small and insignificant it may feel. Hope cannot be squashed, smothered or destroyed, it's like a teensy tiny spark, barely a flame, but it's always there, ready for you to kindle it with your dreams and allow it to grow into a roaring fire, full of warmth, light and strength to keep you afloat.

Never forget that.

[Humpty Dumpty]

I can think of no greater curse than to be immortal. I am sorry your attempts to die have not been successful. I hope you find peace soon.

[Fuzzybear]

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

I am sorry your attempts to die have not been successful.

Humpty. Did you really mean that?

[Fuzzybear]

I think Humpty was showing empathy.. if you read the whole post, take the comment in context and read Humptys other posts..

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Humpty. Did you really mean that?

[Artchic528]

Rose, I too question the use of that phrase. It probably wasn't done to spite Shattered in the least, but it was disturbing to me all the same.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Humpty. Did you really mean that?

Yes

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I think Humpty was showing empathy.. if you read the whole post, take the comment in context and resd Humptys other posts..

You are right Fuzzy. As someone who suffers with serious suicidal thoughts I can thank of nothing worse than trying to kill yourself and not succeeding. Am I saying I wish Shattered was dead? No. I am saying I hope Shattered finds peace soon.

[Rose76]

Oftentimes, a suicide attempt is driven by the need to communicate severe emotional distress to others, in the hope that one can get more understanding and emotional support. The attempter may be trying to say, "I have exhausted my capacity to cope. I can't find within me a basis to have hope that things can get better. I've run out of options. I don't know how to make my life work. I'm lost, unless someone somehow can lead me toward the light. I've tried to explain that this is unbearable. I feel like no one believes me. Please, please believe me."

I've met people who tried to kill themselves and ended up - after getting a lot of help and support - saying they were glad that their attempt failed.

I can definitely think of something worse than making a suicide attempt that fails. What's worse is to really believe that no one would care, if you succeeded.