Whenever I feel really low, my mind goes to how much of a failure my life has been so far. Today is no exception.

So I'm 24, turning 25 in March. I've been hospitalized 13 times since the age of 16, the longest hospitalization lasting for over 3 months.

I applied for disability at age 18 and was accepted the first attempt, and I've been on it ever since. I've worked a few jobs and currently have a part-time cleaning job working only 9 hours a week.

I've attempted post-secondary school twice and had to withdraw on both occasions due to mental health issues. Even if I wanted to go back, I can't until I pay off my student loans. This will take several years.

I have no friends. I do have a boyfriend but the relationship can be difficult. He has issues of his own, especially anger, that affect me greatly. I love him but these outbursts take their toll.

My past high school friends are all successful now, either with good jobs or continuing their education. Back in high school I could have done anything I set my mind to. I was a very smart individual with really good grades.

I have nothing going for me. Life is hopeless. At 24 I already feel like my life is over and I'm stuck.

[MtnTime2896]

Hey, no one's life is actually figured out at our age. Maybe if you want to go to a community college or just go to classes for random certifications, it could help you figure of few things out that make you happy. Your boyfriend should work on his anger, especially around you. If you loves you, he'll do it.

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Hey, no one's life is actually figured out at our age. Maybe if you want to go to a community college or just go to classes for random certifications, it could help you figure of few things out that make you happy. Your boyfriend should work on him anger, especially around you. If you loves you, he'll do it.

Thank you for your reply, it means a lot.

My boyfriend has been working on his anger and overall has improved, but this past week or so has not been very good. I'm trying to be patient but it is hard.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by scaredandconfused

Thank you for your reply, it means a lot.

My boyfriend has been working on his anger and overall has improved, but this past week or so has not been very good. I'm trying to be patient but it is hard.

Just make sure to care for you, as well through this. Maybe, getting away for a day could help you feel replenished.

[kkrrhh]

I'm sorry.
I'm 23 and basically in the same boat. Wish I could help more, but you're not alone.

[Marla500]

With respect, your life is not a failure. You are doing a good job with the challenges life has given you. That is saying a lot. And with what you have experienced, you can be there for someone else. That is worth so much!! Things will get better. Be kind to yourself

[RJ42]

I'm a 42 year old disabled veteran and I can tell you that your life is not a failure because you are still trying and haven't quit. I have times where I feel like a failure too, even to this day. However, I remember that life is like a roller coaster....it has it's ups and downs, can be fun, and sometimes scares the hell out of you. It can give you joy and it can make you sick. The point is to keep riding it because although life is tough, you'll be glad you kept trying, even in the hard times.

[little turtle]

Originally Posted by scaredandconfused

Whenever I feel really low, my mind goes to how much of a failure my life has been so far. Today is no exception.

So I'm 24, turning 25 in March. I've been hospitalized 13 times since the age of 16, the longest hospitalization lasting for over 3 months.

I applied for disability at age 18 and was accepted the first attempt, and I've been on it ever since. I've worked a few jobs and currently have a part-time cleaning job working only 9 hours a week.

I've attempted post-secondary school twice and had to withdraw on both occasions due to mental health issues. Even if I wanted to go back, I can't until I pay off my student loans. This will take several years.

I have no friends. I do have a boyfriend but the relationship can be difficult. He has issues of his own, especially anger, that affect me greatly. I love him but these outbursts take their toll.

My past high school friends are all successful now, either with good jobs or continuing their education. Back in high school I could have done anything I set my mind to. I was a very smart individual with really good grades.

I have nothing going for me. Life is hopeless. At 24 I already feel like my life is over and I'm stuck.

I am really impressed that you are working 9 hours per week...
your relationship with bf sounds stressful...
are you talking with a therapist at present...

[campervanman]

I totally agree with the last thread!

`scaredandconfused `You are still young and able to turn your life around and find the happiness that you crave for! `BUT` for others` who are a lot older, this seems` like a mountain to climb!! `And yet` we all manage to pick ourselves` up, dust ourselves` down and carry on as best as we can! There are people with horrendous disabilities (Through no fault of there own) `And again` they just carry on as best as they can (Hero's`) `SO` If they have the will and determination to carry on (Regardless of their disability) We too, should be able to stand tall and fight the pain, that keeps` knocking us down on a daily basis!!

Take care..............

[little turtle]

there are many HEROS right here...

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry you're struggling... I'm 18 and I don't know what to do with my life, neither Big hugs. I understand your feelings.

Originally Posted by little turtle

I am really impressed that you are working 9 hours per week...
your relationship with bf sounds stressful...
are you talking with a therapist at present...

I just recently had my second session with my new therapist. At first I wasn't sure about her, but I like her. Hopefully these sessions help!

Thank you everyone for your kind replies. They mean a lot.