[NotDeadYet]

-To preface, I have never cut before or am currently doing so-

I feel like such a failure, I can't even muster up the courage to even cut and for some reason this is making me feel worse, like if I dont do it my feelings aren't valid and I'm faking it if I can't. How can I say I really want to die if I can't even do this, how can I prove I'm suffering if I'm to scared to hurt myself. Part of me want to so badly do this so that I can show the world that, yes, I do want to die. But without this I just can't seem to feel valid.

[MickeyCheeky]

Maybe it's just because there is a small part of you that WANTS to live and get better. Maybe you should grab to that hope. I'm sorry you're struggling so much but please, don't give up.. I bet you're a really strong person

You don't need to cut to make your feelings valid. And not cutting certainly doesn't make you a failure. Not everyone who is depressed or suicidal self harms. Different people deal with it in different ways.

Have you told anyone how bad things are for you right now? Are you in therapy or on meds or anything?

I believe you when you say you are suffering and want to die.

[NotDeadYet]

Originally Posted by HalloweenSkye

You don't need to cut to make your feelings valid. And not cutting certainly doesn't make you a failure. Not everyone who is depressed or suicidal self harms. Different people deal with it in different ways.

Have you told anyone how bad things are for you right now? Are you in therapy or on meds or anything?

I believe you when you say you are suffering and want to die.

I haven't really told anyone about this, with my friends I fear being seen as a "downer" and I dont want my family to know about any of it. I have never been to therapy before either. I'm scared I would be a waste of anyone's time anyway.
Thanks for believing me tho.

[passionfruit3]

Well you need to go or that's were you'll end up anyway if you try and commit suicide no suicide is fool proof

[ChildlikeEmpress]

I'm sorry things are so rough right now. I totally believe you, too. Self harm is often more about a release of emotional pain rather than sui. It's like a coping mechanism, even if a harmful one. There are people who self harm who are not suicidal, and there are people who are suicidal who don't self harm. I think it's important that you tell someone how you're feeling though. Therapy would be a good thing. I know you feel like a waste of time but you are not. No therapist worth his or her salt would think of you as a waste of time -- they'd want to help you deal with these feelings.
Hang in there and please tell someone!

[BrownHat22]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

Well you need to go or that's were you'll end up anyway if you try and commit suicide no suicide is fool proof

Um passion fruit, the message "no suicide is fool proof" in the context that you said it in could definitely be taken the wrong way.

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 It could be taken as advocation for more aggressive or statistically lethal suicide methods (e.g. Gunshot as opposed to failed hanging, etc.) 


I'm not going to flag you because you could have meant that phrase differently, but in the future please be more sensitive to others, alright?

just adding my peace here:

I think cutting for me is like a release

the more I hold off on it, the more I have to release later on

I hope that makes sense

[Fuzzybear]

I don't think cutting or not cutting is about "strong" or "weak" ... about "worthwhile" or "failure"...

I'm sure everyone in this thread is a Strong Person.

I hope you stay safe, like many here I wish that I no longer was here