I've got know more doors to try,......

I first wonna say. PC your home of the best community I've met. We all at one point in time feel alone, in a darkness with no seals , no cracks for light to come in. I'm very concerned about my own self at the moment because time and time again I read stories, of otheers and the depression seems to have come out of hiding from somewhere. While mine just came here with no reason just to tease me.

My therapist today told me this in a shorter form, basicly I have no reason to be depressed as others are! But I am a human I lye in a pool of sadness. I do not know why I am sad. I feel so horrible going to the therapist and knowing, the answers but dreding the questions.

I believe somewhere amongst my troubles i have a good side. Right now my evil side is lurking, I feel evil because I'm told so. Not directly butu indirectly by false reasoning why I'm depressed.

All doors are locked and I have only 1 key, none in which unlock it,...

Where is my hope...

I am guilty of being sad for "no" reason....but why?...how does anyone know unless they look....

should I just die?; so i dont have to be sad anymore?..or stay alive and wonder..and be told..i have no reason...

I dont know

Dustin

I am sorry

Dustin: I wish I knew what to say? I think you're suffering from some sort of Clinical Depression. It doesn't always come with a reason. Why do we have to have a reason to be sad? Things in life are sad if you stop and think about it.
It's what we do about it that counts. You are doing something Dustin. I have one idea...................are you looking for a T that will tell you only what YOU want to hear?
I'm afraid you're setting yourself up for alot of heartache by doing that. It just doesn't happen that way. Why would your
parents put you in a situation like that? You would accomplish nothing. I don't know, either. Please try to try
again. Never give up Dustin. We are here for you to LEAN
on.....................

You have no reason to be depressed??? What kind of therapist are you going to? Excuse me, I shoudln't criticize your T, but if he really said that, you may well ask him for explanations, because it sounds quite stupid.
We are depressed for reasons that are partly genetic, partly biochemical, and partly psychological. The latter are the only possible that we may know, but they are buried somewhere in our childhood, possibly the fetal part of our life... they are absolutely unknown and absolutely real, like a black hole or a quasar.
Propose these subject in your next session and if the T will dismiss it go find another therapist!

I see you are in the guilt zone. Before you can heal your depression you must get out of that zone. Who could help you if not your T? He should help you understand that nobody you are not bad, not guilty, and you shouldn't be sorry for anything.

I heartly urge you to address these issues with your T, and feel free to evaluate his performance. This is too important, therapy is the only way out, it must be done well.

YOU ARE NOT GUILTY, and you are not even on trial. Remember!

I completely agree with Stefano. Your therapist telling you that you have no reason to be depressed is ridictulous. How long have you been going to this person? Are you on medications? Hang in, you don't have to die to stop hurting Dustin and you may find soon that you don't need a key - the doors were unlocked all the time. Many blessings to you, Etheria

I guess I shoudl clarify something. She didnt say I had no reason, but rather I had no history of trauma that could have started it. I know previously I posted that she said that but I wasnt thinking when I wrote it Ill edit it if I can..im sry.now I feel even more pathtic........

dustin......hang in there sweetheart...........we'll all get through this somehow.......

One doesn't need a history of trauma or traumatic event to cause depression. I agree with Stefano and that maybe you need a new therapist...one who actually does their job and who cares about their patients. No therapist should ever say that to anyone. Ever.

I hope you do yourself a big favor and find a different therapist. And that you begin to feel better soon...

incase everyone hasnt read all replies I couldlnt edit the orginal so I posted back,..my therapist did not say I had no reason to be depressed,..that was my error,..i guess i explained it wrong...im sorry...

((((((((((((((((( Moonkin ))))))))))))))))))

(((MOONKIN))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. I just wanted to say it is okay to feel depressed from time to time, and if the Depression is taking over your life thenit is time to get help for yourself, which you are doing. It will take time at this point to get to the main root of yur issues since you have been so isolated for so long. Just try to hang in there and do the best that you can do with your dpression at this time. Journaling is good to help you understand what you are going through at this time. Opening the door of isolation is hard in the beginning and it is more important than ever to tell the truth to get the help you need at this time. PM anytime if you wish. Takd care. Soidhonia

What is the "reason" you have for getting the flu? You are not well, why do you need a reason; look at how you can get well again. Think of the depression as the illness it is, it is not a reflection on you for getting ill; being ill/depressed is not a "prize" that you merit! Work with your T to make yourself healthier so you can fight off the illness, it doesn't matter so much where it came from. We all can become healthier, even T's.