[Mysterious_Lion]

I really don't blame them, I been there for 7 years I used to be so fast so reliable and now I am sluggish and just can't concentrate at my job the job is so fast pace but so high school like. The place made my depression worse I did have good memories but soon they change management everything gone to hell and going down more bad. I don't know if being treated useless there is okay or agreeable but I know I make mistakes everyday I hate myself even more for it.

Co workers come up talk to me like I haven't been in there for years had enough that job makes me cry when I get home I even on my days off I worry about going back I worry about ****ing up. I don't know why I am tired of working I don't know who I am anymore these past 3 years of the 7 years I am always angry due to the place and due to that place as well I think of killing myself cause makes me feel so worthless I worry about it and when I quit am I even good employee material? I had this mind frame for so long I don't believe I am good for anything. But alot of people had enough of the place want to quit! We lost alot of good employees in the past 2 years. I know I should have a job line up but I feel like piece of ****, I had restful holidays and my partner notice when I come back from the job I am a mess I just feel dumber due to the job.
How do people with depression and anxiety cope with terrible jobs? I feel even worse when Christmas coming up.

[Journey-Man]

My job has been really rough for me this year as well. Extremely busy in a high pressure global environment.

Part of the cerebral benefit of Depression is that I looked into what I want to do as a future Career a LOT. However, part of the difficulty is that you feel like you'll never get out.

I think for me what helps right now is that I focus on what my priorities are, and keep that confined to three things at a time.

Right now that's:
1) Meditation, I do this before work and on my lunch breaks I go for a walk and meditate by a pond. This is tremendously helpful.
2) Exercise. I try to either go on a 30 minute walk or do Yoga along with some hikes on the weekend. Getting active is critical I think.
3) Journaling. At the end of the day I journal about whatever I think is pertinent, whether that's work, therapy, health, relationships, etc.

Perhaps focusing on improving your overall vitality will have beneficial consequences for you at work? It does for me, but I also try to practice a TON of compassion towards myself, as I do fail and fall short of my own standards. That's okay.

I hope you find something you love, but more importantly I hope that you come to love life again and become a productive person out of an earned vitality.

[Shazerac]

so sorry you're having a hard time.

Sounds like you could be depressed and questioning your self worth. Take care of yourself. Will quitting your job cause financial problems? If so you will feel even worse. Would it be possible to find another job before quitting the one you have?

[Mysterious_Lion]

Originally Posted by Journey-Man

My job has been really rough for me this year as well. Extremely busy in a high pressure global environment.

Part of the cerebral benefit of Depression is that I looked into what I want to do as a future Career a LOT. However, part of the difficulty is that you feel like you'll never get out.

I think for me what helps right now is that I focus on what my priorities are, and keep that confined to three things at a time.

Right now that's:
1) Meditation, I do this before work and on my lunch breaks I go for a walk and meditate by a pond. This is tremendously helpful.
2) Exercise. I try to either go on a 30 minute walk or do Yoga along with some hikes on the weekend. Getting active is critical I think.
3) Journaling. At the end of the day I journal about whatever I think is pertinent, whether that's work, therapy, health, relationships, etc.

Perhaps focusing on improving your overall vitality will have beneficial consequences for you at work? It does for me, but I also try to practice a TON of compassion towards myself, as I do fail and fall short of my own standards. That's okay.

I hope you find something you love, but more importantly I hope that you come to love life again and become a productive person out of an earned vitality.

I think the only few missing I need to do is journalist writing I seem to try to make a routine of it and I forget about it and mediation I find it hard to focus on meditation as my mind seems to chatter alot. I am still trying to find a therapist I get along with.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry you're feeling this low.

[Journey-Man]

Originally Posted by Mysterious_Lion

I think the only few missing I need to do is journalist writing I seem to try to make a routine of it and I forget about it and mediation I find it hard to focus on meditation as my mind seems to chatter alot. I am still trying to find a therapist I get along with.

I have a very active mind too and always have some string of cognitions going. Mindfulness Meditation is less about turning off the mind, and more about having acceptance for what is in the mind. It's like standing on the side of the freeway watching the traffic, maybe hoping into a car for just a moment, but not allowing yourself to get carried away.

[Mysterious_Lion]

Originally Posted by Journey-Man

I have a very active mind too and always have some string of cognitions going. Mindfulness Meditation is less about turning off the mind, and more about having acceptance for what is in the mind. It's like standing on the side of the freeway watching the traffic, maybe hoping into a car for just a moment, but not allowing yourself to get carried away.

Thank you and thanks everyone for their advice their support. Merry Christmas guys. I will study or research into mindfulness meditation.