[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Hey guys

I'm so lost. I don't know what I feel anymore. A lot of the time I just sit with myself trying to figure out my emotions, and I never did. I guess you can call it numbness, but I call it dullness since I'm pretty dull at everything.

I used to be able to think, I used to be able to talk, I used to be able to move....now I have lost all of that, not to mention my complete lack of interest in the things that I used to like.

All the time I feel like I'm not depressed, despite all the classic symptoms being absolutely there and crystal clear. But I also don't feel happy. And I just can't put my finger on anything. I'm so very confused.

Any of you guys feel the same way? Please, do share, because this is not only a thread about me or solely about helping me, it's for all of us who might be going through the same thing, and it surely is for anyone in need of help regarding this matter (or any matter, if you like )

[ABC1357]

I can relate. I don't feel happy and I lost interest. I can still think, but not necessarily what I want or need to think about. I don't know what I'm feeling. I can tell I'm anxious and depressed, but I don't know why.

I used to be quite active. People described me workaholic, since I was in high school. Now I'm working/studying just like a machine.

Wish all of us peaceful holiday season.

[QueenCopper]

I totally understand! I can't figure out how I feel. I am not crying, or excited about anything. I feel like I am just here right now. Not even sure how I am making it through the day. My anxiety is through the roof and I am not sure why. I am not focusing very well on anything at all. I hope something comes to light for us all who are trapped in this tunnel of no emotion. (((Hugs)))

I know the feeling.
One of the things I did to deal with this is to ignite my environment (room) with life - a lava lamp, an aquarium, a cleaner room. A clear place can help make things clear up.
I do not know you nor your condition on a deep level, but I know how this can feel, and I hope you'll find a way to see things clearly again.

[MommaD]

It's so hard to move out of the frozen wastelands of numbness. Sometimes I think it's because we believe if we let ourselves feel what we really feel deep down that we'll drown in our feelings. Maybe?
It truly does sound like depression and you seem like you're smart and self aware enough to recognize it. I hope you reach out for help--talk to your doc, a counselor, and the folks here on PC too. I accept that you're feeling really critical of yourself right now but I don't think you're the worst creature ever. Could you challenge that thought even just a little? Can you think of even one time when you were kind or encouraging to someone else? When you made a donation, stood up for a cause you believe in, maybe just gave someone who needed it a smile? I hope that may help you see yourself in a more compassionate light.

Btw, I am an off the charts INTJ too. It can be a challenge, but I figure if that's the worse problem I have, I'm having a really good day!
Hope you feel better soon

[Mysterious_Lion]

I can relate in emotions although I know feel lonely and lack energy mostly everyday I still questions why I exist I feel childish and selfish and how do I feel most days?.

[Marla500]

I have been feeling pretty numb too, for awhile now.

I like this-

Originally Posted by Vibrating Obsidian

I know the feeling.
One of the things I did to deal with this is to ignite my environment (room) with life - a lava lamp, an aquarium, a cleaner room. A clear place can help make things clear up.
I do not know you nor your condition on a deep level, but I know how this can feel, and I hope you'll find a way to see things clearly again.

I think this is a great idea. I have been wanting to put up a string of white or blue lights in my room and I think I will do that now.

[introspectiveme]

Originally Posted by RenouncedTroglodyte

Hey guys

I'm so lost. I don't know what I feel anymore. A lot of the time I just sit with myself trying to figure out my emotions, and I never did. I guess you can call it numbness, but I call it dullness since I'm pretty dull at everything.

I used to be able to think, I used to be able to talk, I used to be able to move....now I have lost all of that, not to mention my complete lack of interest in the things that I used to like.

All the time I feel like I'm not depressed, despite all the classic symptoms being absolutely there and crystal clear. But I also don't feel happy. And I just can't put my finger on anything. I'm so very confused.

Any of you guys feel the same way? Please, do share, because this is not only a thread about me or solely about helping me, it's for all of us who might be going through the same thing, and it surely is for anyone in need of help regarding this matter (or any matter, if you like )

I went through a phase where I was very numb, then I went through a phase where I was very emotional. Now it's more of a mix between the two. I am actually finding things to be exciting again, but it's mainly thanks to me telling myself that I am myself's best friend and no matter what happens, I'll never betray myself. I'll always have myself and my thoughts with me.

There are only two things that make me feel not numb which are videogames and guitar, and this is after almost two years of not picking up a guitar or a controller due to numbness. Do you have something that is remotely interesting? can you find at least try to spend some time with it, it may be difficult at first?

[Onward2wards]

I've been having some of that too lately. I can only describe it as "the emotion that's not an emotion, but it's bad". Stressed, bored, tired and resigned all at the same time?

[MickeyCheeky]

I can relate.. I'm sorry so many people are struggling with this, too

Be strong

[eversad]

I completely recognize that feeling. Lately I have been feeling totally empty and devoid of feeling.

For me the cause it is probably just that I have been let down and hurt by so many people so many times that my brain seems to want to automatically block out any emotional responses to prevent heartbreak. The numbness is a weird feeling. It feels good not being able to even hurt anymore but bad because on the inside I know I am truly broken.

It sucks losing interest in things you used to love though, it painful because you know you want to do them but its almost as if you physically cannot. Hang in there!

[crunchyt]

hi you guys. Jumping right in. I'm new here.

I'm really struggling with this thing too. I have lost interest in everything. Boredom? ? I guess this feeling is numbness? I had wondered if it were a symptom of my abilify?