[meowmixxx]

So first time therapy last Friday. Maybe last time.

I went to see this lady who has supposedly been doing this for 20 years and specializes in trauma and depression. She went through a checklist asking me questions and I ended up divulging more than I wanted to on the first session. The questions just made me so emotional because no one has ever asked me those things. I'm a bad liar and couldn't hide it.

Anyways, first she proceed to tell me my past psychiatrist was a liar and that I didn't have adhd. Even though my medication has worked wonders in my life. I go to a general practioner to manage my medication because I had some bad side effects with one in particular and my vitals had to be taken more often. I choose to see this doctor to make sure I didn't have damaging blood pressure. Anyways the therapist told me it was wrong to go to a general practioner, they don't know anything and that I was addicted to my medication. She only said this after she asked me if there was a history of drug abuse in my family. She talked over me when I tried to tell her all the benefits of my adhd meds.

Anyways ....it gets worse. So after divulging more than I should have and crying. She tells me "horrible things happened to you and you should go to a psychiatric hospital and admit yourself. These are awful things." she continued to tell me over and over again how bad my life was. Like I know... Why are you grinding this in my head. I told her I couldn't afford a hospital and be in debt. And she basically said she "couldn't" help me even after I told her all I wanted was to talk to someone who would listen she kept pushing meds on me and I told her I didn't want to take any yet. I wanted to work through therapy first.

Anyways, I don't know if she was rude to me because my insurance has a special mental health program where your first 3 sessions are free. Idk if she gets a smaller cut and doesn't wanna deal with me, but she made me feel awful. Telling me I was a drug seeker, reminding me over and over how bad my life was, not wanting to work on therapy with me.

I left feeling suicidal honestly. I told my boyfriend about it and he was furious. I have depended on him so much for emotional support. I wanted to ease some of that by talking to a therapist. Now I'm officially terrified of finding someone else. I'm so scared and i have a horrible outlook on the whole thing. I have seen many types of doctors and they all seem uncaring. This was no different.

So how do I get over this? What should I do if I don't want therapy? Because I don't think I could get myself to make another appointment elsewhere. I don't trust people.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry for how you were treated.. finding a good therapist can be hard. I don't know if you can do this, but please cancel any future session you have with her.. nobody deserves this treatment

[meowmixxx]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I'm so sorry for how you were treated.. finding a good therapist can be hard. I don't know if you can do this, but please cancel any future session you have with her.. nobody deserves this treatment

I have definitely canceled my next appointment with her. When I emailed her telling her that I didn't think we connected very well, and that it wasn't a good fit (literally all I said). She just emailed me and said "Fine"....

What? Seriously? "Fine"... I don't know what I did wrong. But she made me feel guilty... I know it's not true, but man I feel awful.

[Hobbit House]

That's sad that your therapist couldn't be a help to you. Finding a good therapist can take time. It took me years due to the trust issues and not wanting to bring up the abuse. Don't feel awful, it's on her...not you! Good luck!

[winter4me]

Let the thought of her go (unless she works for an agency in which case you should share your negative/damaging experience in writing or by phone with her supervisor in case they are willing to do something to prevent others from like sessions)----there are good people out there. Shop around, ask friends if you can. (((((((big hug)))))))))

[MtnTime2896]

Specializes in trauma therapy? No wonder people with severe trauma have an inability to recover with so called "trauma specialists" like that. That's not how you handle a trauma case. Ever. I don't care if the patient's last name is Gein, stop being a degrading/condescending *****. She might as well have told you, "Well you're broken beyond repair." Which you're not, by the way. Don't go back to her. Sounds like she doesn't even understand the first thing about trauma. You need someone who won't just put you through the drug/hospital ringer. I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't understand how therapists like that are allowed to keep their license.

[meowmixxx]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Specializes in trauma therapy? No wonder people with severe trauma have an inability to recover with so called "trauma specialists" like that. That's not how you handle a trauma case. Ever. I don't care if the patient's last name is Gein, stop being a degrading/condescending *****. She might as well have told you, "Well you're broken beyond repair." Which you're not, by the way. Don't go back to her. Sounds like she doesn't even understand the first thing about trauma. You need someone who won't just put you through the drug/hospital ringer. I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't understand how therapists like that are allowed to keep their license.

She told me she didn't think she could do anything to help me her "professional opinion is that I go to a hospital" . I mean... I felt like a legitimately crazy person. Strap me down and put me in an asylum.

Needless to say I won't be seeing her. I know I'm not crazy. I'm just depressed for many days at a time and would like some advice on how to get through it. I figured therapy was the first step, then possibly medication if that didn't quite help enough. But straight to a hospital? I wasn't suicidal. I may have had some thoughts, but just thoughts. No actions, no plan, just feeling down you know?

I need a therapist for trauma from a therapist. Lol.... Not funny but I'm trying to laugh it off.

[Angel_Davis]

I had so many bad therapists and when I tell them I won't come back, without insulting them, they act offended and angry...its terrible

[MtnTime2896]

I still have to laugh off my previous therapist before my current. She was supposed to be a trauma specialist, too. I didn't leave and I eventually became so distraught from our sessions that I ended up IP. I remember telling that therapist to stick her professional opinion and her experience where the sun don't shine.

Those of us with trauma aren't any crazier than the average joe. We're just from a different terrain. She should check her own damn self into that place and learn some humility. Hell, as ignorant as her comments were, I wouldn't be surprised if they found a few little problems with her "brain".

[meowmixxx]

Originally Posted by Angel_Davis

I had so many bad therapists and when I tell them I won't come back, without insulting them, they act offended and angry...its terrible

Yeah... They need therapy too apparently...

[meowmixxx]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I still have to laugh off my previous therapist before my current. She was supposed to be a trauma specialist, too. I didn't leave and I eventually became so distraught from our sessions that I ended up IP. I remember telling that therapist to stick her professional opinion and her experience where the sun don't shine.

Those of us with trauma aren't any crazier than the average joe. We're just from a different terrain. She should check her own damn self into that place and learn some humility. Hell, as ignorant as her comments were, I wouldn't be surprised if they found a few little problems with her "brain".

Glad to know I'm not the only one who had a bad experience. I've heard so many good things from people who have gone to therapy... I was expecting to feel like I wanted to work with it more. Not hide. You are brave! I would have wanted to tell her off, but I cry when I'm mad lol

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by meowmixxx

Glad to know I'm not the only one who had a bad experience. I've heard so many good things from people who have gone to therapy... I was expecting to feel like I wanted to work with it more. Not hide. You are brave! I would have wanted to tell her off, but I cry when I'm mad lol

I don't know about brave. I just didn't care anymore and I had been crying so much that day, no way water works could've formed in my eyes. I guess I looked deranged because she wrote that I acted like I was going to hit her. Funny, considering that I'm a pacifist and was standing at the opposite end of the room.

[Fuzzybear]

I consulted a therapist who was supposedly qualified to handle "trauma cases" - however this individual needed therapy more than I did

I'm sorry this happened to you, that woman sounds like a piece of **** (putting it very politely )

[meowmixxx]

You guys made me feel better knowing that it's not me it's her. And I'm not glad any of us have had bad experiences, but I'm Glad I'm not the only one. I talked to my friend who recommended I see a therapist and she referred me to her friends therapist. We laughed about how silly the crazy lady was, and she made me feel a lot better about reaching out again. I'm in such a good mood so I figured I'd reach our now before I doubt myself.

I explained to this new lady about how my previous session went and she was very sympathetic. I will be scheduling with her and hoping this will be a good fit. I feel better about this one this time. I didn't know she participated in my insurances mental health program or I would have reached out much sooner.

Wish me luck guys!

[MtnTime2896]

Good luck

[laffer75]

Wow that's horrible

[Medusax]

[mar33]

She sounds awful you should not feel guilty. Cancelling your next appointment only makes her mad because her job is supposedly to 'help people' and of course she was just flat out mean and cancelling kind of shows that to her. I'm so sorry you had to go through that

I remember when I had my first music lesson (I play the cello), and I was super scared to be in a room alone with my teacher because it reminded me of my first meeting with a therapist.

My teacher turned out to be one of the most beautiful souls I've ever met and every time I leave I can't stop smiling. She just cared about me and my stories without trying, and reacted to every one of my ideas like they actually mattered, and I ended up telling her more than I have with a therapist. I guess even if the person supposedly has experience, sometimes the right person for you could be completely different. Don't let bad therapists (and bad people) ruin your chances of finding a someone who could help you feel peace.

[Fuzzybear]

[sugarbeeMe]

Originally Posted by meowmixxx

You guys made me feel better knowing that it's not me it's her. And I'm not glad any of us have had bad experiences, but I'm Glad I'm not the only one. I talked to my friend who recommended I see a therapist and she referred me to her friends therapist. We laughed about how silly the crazy lady was, and she made me feel a lot better about reaching out again. I'm in such a good mood so I figured I'd reach our now before I doubt myself.

I explained to this new lady about how my previous session went and she was very sympathetic. I will be scheduling with her and hoping this will be a good fit. I feel better about this one this time. I didn't know she participated in my insurances mental health program or I would have reached out much sooner.

Wish me luck guys!

Best of luck! So glad you kept looking! Keep us posted on how things continue with here!