[samj40]

So... I'm fed up with just 'existing' and being miserable all the time. For the past two months I've done nothing but cry and make plans to end this crappy existence.

I'm all alone, I've had a falling out with the only local friend I had and even my few online friends and SO aren't any sort of support. Like at all. They just ignore me and hope I go away. Family is useless, too.

I have no psychiatrist, I had to wrap up with my psych after she moved on to another job. I'm currently on the waiting list to see another but he's interstate (I live in a small area) and doesn't take emergencies if they're new patients he hasn't seen yet. Um... I'm seeing a psychologist though, but I feel like I'm getting the "I don't know why you're here" treatment and I'm too poor to afford regular sessions.

I can't go to the hospital despite having a plan because all they do is make me sit alone in the ED surrounded by screaming kids and when I'm finally seen to by mental health, they tell me to meditate. What good is meditation gonna do when I don't want to be alive?

So... I don't know where to go. I'm all alone and desperate for someone to care. Even if it's just a little.

[sugarbeeMe]

I got no great ideas to solve your problem, but want to send you some love, hugs, and compassion. I have felt similar at times in my life and thankfully did eventually feel better. It did take lots of TPP- time, patience, and practice. I am so glad I stuck it out and finally found my way through. Life can get better. Love ❤️ for you.

[Fuzzybear]

[MommaD]

Samj40, there are people here who care--I care. Please hang on. You are not alone though I know it can sure feel that way at times.
If things get really bad, could you try calling a crisis hotline to keep yourself safe?
Can your pdoc help with meds until you can get in to see your new psychiatrist?
Would you be willing to try IP if you needed that to keep safe?
I'm sending thoughts of comfort and peace your way

[MtnTime2896]

I care. I know that might be weird since this is online and you don't know me, but I do. Everyone has something special, a certain uniqueness to them, something that makes them, them. You have that, the same as the rest of everyone on here.

If you need to let something out, have a random distraction of a conversation or anything; I'm here. You cam PM me anytime and I'll try to get back as soon as I'm able.