can't do this any more

Sorry, no point to this, but I just need to rant.
I am really struggling at the moment
I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression last year and I feel like I am just getting progressively worse.

I have tried a few different medications, but none have had any effect, and I am very sensitive to side effects so my GP referred me for a medication review, which should have taken a couple of weeks but it has been 3 months now and I have still not heard anything from them.

I started CBT a few weeks ago but I am really struggling with it, I knew it would be hard but I just seem to be feeling worse and worse and I worry that if the psychologist decides CBT isn't right for me I will just be stuck on another waiting list feeling like this and with no support.

Then, this morning, my GP appointment was cancelled (I see him once a month just to see how I am doing etc.) and I can't get another appointment with him for nearly a month. I think this was just the final straw today and I actually cried. He is one of only three people who know about my problems, and the first person that I admitted them to. I know that sometimes appointments have to be cancelled but I just feel so lost right now. Plus, I am not sleeping and have constant headaches and am just permanently exhausted.

I just don't want to be here any more

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