What're you tired of hearing people say?

I'm treatment resistant depression. With my first therapist, she was always saying how well I didn't to keep going with my life, despite the moods.

Today, I saw a new pdoc, who basically said just that. He made a point of it, numerous times, how great it is that I still socialise, participate in life, exercise, attend therapy.

My current T, also has made mention of this. Only she seems to see the pointlessness behind it all.

I am so so tired of hearing this. It all means nothing to me. I do these things, in order to stay hidden. I am not making progress, I have never made progress. So this is not a good thing to note, it is just my way of hiding. None of it makes me feel any better, so why must people insist on noting what a 'great job' I am doing?

Anyway. That is my rant.

What are you tired of people saying to you?

That it will pass, just as it always has done.

Yes maybe it will. And it does, my mood can lift again. But just as much as I know it can get better it always gets bad again. So when I am feeling terrible and suicidal the last thing I want to hear is it will get better just so that I can go through it all over again.

That all I need to do is change my thoughts.

"It'll be OK." Yeah? Shove that where the sun doesn't shine.

My friend is 55 and he can be kind of nippy at times.

He wants to start a pool league for people with disabilities. He attends committee meetings with an organization that arranges social events, and he acts like he's the chairman. He wants members of this group we're in to play for points, like each victory counts as 3 points. However, this is kind of daft because not everyone can make the practice sessions. It's not just a group for playing pool either. They also go to art classes and other events. But he can be so awkward.

"You were doing well"
(On another med I was allergic to ....)

I am in the "this will pass and you will feel better again" basket. I know it is true and don't need to be reminded of that when I feel like s***.

I'm tired of hearing people say, "It happened in the past...just forget about it and go on with your life." I had an extremely traumatic childhood, and what happened in the past shaped the person I am today. I was a happy-go-lucky child until the traumatic experiences began. I wonder who I would have become had that not happened to me. I grieve for that child who never bloomed out of me. Does that even make sense?

That it's all in my head... Yeah, no *****

"how can we get you from a 3/4 to a 5?" like 'are you fing serious?' I am thinking!

I am not suicidal so stop asking me "do we need to take away your pills?" that was me in 2014 I am a different person stop thinking the worse I am not the same person.

"are your voices talking to you saying bad things?" .....me: "of course always but I am not sharing and what does this have to do with depression anyway?"

"you'll get over this I am sure you'll will its just temporary!"

I'm tired of people saying anything these days, honestly. I am fast becoming a misanthrope. Can't wait 'til I live on my own, then I can be rid of all that noise except for obligations at work. It will be awesome. Just me and my auditory hallucinations... and as soon as I turn 21, alcohol! That'll be a right party. fur sure!

Makes perfect sense to me, I think some people just can't grasp how damaging traumatic experiences can be to a person. Things are not that easy to "get over it" or "move on"... It is really hard thinking what your life could have been :/