Should I or shouldn't I

I'm in a really bad place right now. My depression and my desire to is at an all time high. I keep seeing things out of the corner of my eye and I'm hearing people tell me how sorry I am or how I should just

My mom needs me right now and I'm trying to be strong. But, I don't think I can. I keep trying to stay busy with stuff. Trying to take my mind off of it but it is always there. I'm out of it when I'm alone because that is the only way I can deal. I want to check myself into the hospital but it will make it harder on my already bad situation with my dad in the hospital. I don't know what to do.

It sounds like you are in a really tough place right now. You do have worth - you are unique and special and no one should say otherwise. You will get through this.

I don't know anything about your individual situation but if you truly think that you should be hospitalized, I think that you should admit yourself. Your safety is a priority. If you want to be there for your mom, you need to take care of yourself too.

Do you see a therapist or psychiatrist? If you think your situation is bad to the point of hospitalization, then.. ask for it. It will be hard, but hopefully your situation will improve and you'll be safe