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Mar 20, 2017, 08:07 AM
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I catch myself, when I'm lost in thought and unable to claw my way out of it, staring at people I love. Sure, I feel my love for them and my need to keep them safe, but that's not it. This feeling, like a deep sadness flows through me, carrying with it a voice recording on repeat, "You're gonna break them. You know it. They're going to break because of you. You're gonna break them."
This happens often but becomes increasingly frequent when I'm in a state like this. One in which the thin metal looks sweet and my dark thoughts of release become a sanctuary. And no one can help. I was a fool for believing otherwise. Who can help someone who only desires pennies to be placed on their eyes?
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 *Laurie*, Aardwolf, Fuzzybear, MickeyCheeky, Rohag, woe-be-gone
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#2
Mar 20, 2017, 08:24 AM
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I've occasionally sought an algorithm that would cleanly determine my value - positive or negative - to my loved ones. I haven't found it.
Can these things even be quantified? 
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My dog  mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.
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#3
Mar 20, 2017, 04:53 PM
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Quote:
 (((( So leigheas ))))
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Mar 20, 2017, 07:11 PM
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I'm not good with words at the moment, but i'm thinking of you.
You matter 
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#5
Mar 21, 2017, 06:00 AM
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Why have I broken so many times? Why is this time worse? Why is it that, this time, I want to break?
Maybe because it will make it easier to give into my darkest desire. An ending fit for the story, as it were.
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"Give him his freedom and he'll remember his humanity." Last edited by MtnTime2896; Mar 21, 2017 at 08:12 AM. |
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Mar 21, 2017, 06:09 AM
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We care about you, no matter what 
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