Shoulda

Especially for people in the UK, do the professionals have a rather narrow perception of what behaviours and even thoughts and feelings are "acceptable"..

Thinking about su is "wrong"

Not putting up with all sorts of scary health stuff in silence is wrong... a lecture is given - (with very poor use of words, making anxiety worse ) not a great use of the 10 minutes maximum as I'd already told them I'm not "stupid" (so therefore am, amazingly, capable of using google )

This was my fault though, I should have remembered, never trust an unknown doctor with anything.....

"I'm fine" "I'm fine" - "thank you"

And it's beyond hard not to have to consult unknown doctors over here.. I'm screwed

Am I the only person who feels "shamed" at times by professionals for not being the normal, average "coping" at all times pleb or whatever they like best, people who "conform" to their values at all times... and never argue even if they are misdiagnosed

I'm sorry, I'm probably "just bitter"

I did have at least one doctor who didn't use shaming tactics.. this doctor has
moved away.

I'm sorry, I'm not "endearing"

If I can help just one person who "suffers in silence" then maybe this grrr is not a "waste"

It's not just the UK Fuzzy

One pdoc I had told me flat out he's not showing me how to taper off the lithium because the side effects (being dumb as a stump) I was describing were "unheard of" oh and having zero fine motor skills and being unable to apply make up or write with a bloody pen was acceptable in his eyes because he can just RX a med to lesson the "shaking like a leaf" side effect.

Yeah no, that's when I did something terribly risky and just flushed all my damn meds.

I've had ok and not so ok experiences since then (2011) but none so bad as that fuqface.

Pardon my French.

PS just wanted you to know you're not alone.

My experience with doctors, medical professionals in general is mixed. I suppose that was to be expected being a part of a "mobile" community and a couple of different systems.

A few were outstanding. A few were incompetent. A few were downright hostile. But I had the luxury of either waiting for a new doctor or possibly requesting a new one.
I'm sorry.

Fuzzybear "not endearing". That is a description of too many of your "professionals", not you.
None of your grrrs goes to waste, dear bear.

You are not the only one.

wish i had more in the way of advice

You are endearing to me! No you are not alone in feeling ashamed by doctors around the stuff. I am sitting in that right now and not accessing help because I don't want to be shamed again.
I care about you very much!