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Most of the time I trick myself into thinking I am not so bad. If I can get through the day without any major hiccup what does it matter if my thoughts are drawn to suicide more and more frequently? It's just ideation, nothing more.
But I know that isn't really true. I research it a lot. Too much really. The last few weeks I have been purchasing things that I think will make sure I am successful. Who knows though, really. Even with that I tell myself I'm coping. It's when everyone around me starts to notice that I see it's more of a problem. I work in retail, and I have actually lost count of the times customers have told me to cheer up this week. A guy even went out of his way to joke around with me today because it looked like I needed it. I know I'm not really ok, but I can always argue with myself that I'm just fine and dandy. I probably won't truly accept it until it is too late, as always. Not sure what the point is to me posting this, but there ya go...
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Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Failure. Failure - Breaking Benjamin |
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"I may be older but I am not wise / I'm still a child's grown-up disguise / and I never can tell you what you want to know / You will find out as you go." (from: "A Nightengale's Lullaby" - Julie Last) |
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sometimes crimson acts like a crazy cat, She has to remind herself, she is good and kind ... For that's a fact. 😺 like a small boat on the ocean , sending big waves into motion like how a single word, can make a heart open, I might have only one match But i can make an Explosion ! Rachel. Platten. Fight song. Member since 03/10/09 (new user name) |
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As always, I understand you. I understand arguing with yourself. All too well.
Please tell me about the skydive.... I want to know why you're doing it. I want to know how you found out about it and what made you decide to do it. I want this story, if you are able to share. If not, I understand totally. |
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Did that guy cheer you up? You must be somewhat likeable if your customers are feeling concerned about you. Maybe you are just overthinking things like many of us do at PC. ![]() |
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I hope you are right though.
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Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Failure. Failure - Breaking Benjamin |
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