I wish I could restart my life....you?

Every. Single. Day.
I've been consistently depressed since middle school, and have made every mistake I could have made. All day every day, I fantasize that either I wasn't a depressed loser of my own making, or I could completely restart life without my memories, and avoid mistakes that I made.

Hi Marco
Everything or selected stuff, like in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind?

I wish I could change a lot too. If I could avoid certain wild goose chases and know more about (and accept) myself sooner, things would have been a lot easier and less awkward. Some things are really hard to forget, even if I've made my life better...even if there's a chance that the people I've embarrassed myself in front of don't even remember me.

Sure. But what if it made no difference? Then I have to relive it and it's been no fun the first time round...

Sometimes I wish I could go back and relive or change parts of my life but my life has been so hard I don't really want to go through it again.

Lyrics to a song that I love:

Make me someone new
Tell me what I do to rewrite this story
How long can I stay
Lost without a way to rewrite
I wish I could rewrite this story
Change every word of every line
Write any story but mine.
Someone tell me when
Can I start again
And rewrite this story
Yeah, yeah
How long can I stay
Lost without a way to rewrite
Rewrite
I wish I could rewrite this story

Smash cast "Rewrite this story"

Nah. Not for me. I think everything happened for a reason and frankly I'm glad a lot of it is behind me now. I actually never wish to relive my life or re-do anything.

Same. I wish I could do things differently. Sometimes I think of relocating somewhere for fresh new start.

no, i wish i would just end mine

No way! I was abused way too much when I was younger.

I don't think restarting my life would make too much of a diffrence.

sure, I have thought about it all the time- if their was a button to restart life, i'd probably press it,

I'm 30 and I still think this life is a simulator

outch

OMG, I'm going to turn 45 in a few months and I feel like I've wasted my entire life. I would love a do-over. I can't believe my life is so meaningless.

Yes but if I restarted my life again nothing would change just because I did a do over. Wish I started change at 16, dunno why I picked that specific age.

I have thought about this alot throughout what I perceive to be my dreadful, pointless existence.
The awful events that have led to my anger and depression would still happen, so how much could I honestly change ?

No. I have never had a life. There is no reason to believe a second chance would be any different.

Would definitely want to have another go at it, preferably in another country, in another body, without gender identity issues. I'm going to be 30 and I've wasted all my life til now, except for the travelling I did, which doesn't amount to that many days put together, obviously. It saddens me that I will have officially wasted my teen years and my 20s ,without having felt love, intimacy, deep connections to other human beings...the things I've always needed and wanted the most. Career wise it's a total waste too but I don't really care about that cause I was never someone interested in that.

I'm glad you started this thread. There are things I wish I could change. I have had a horrendous time in the different decades of my life but I just realized that I wouldn't want to restart it and not make mistakes. I would stick with the mosaic that is my life now. Thank you for helping me realize this.

I often wish mine never started in the first place...really dark, but really real.