[Islander]

Hey all -

I know that I haven't been on in a while - sorry for that too! Feel like I have fallen into a dark place, somewhat of a hole. It is almost a feeling of detachment, but not. I can see things going on around me, but can not reach up far enough to be seen or heard. Does that make sense? My meds were recently stopped, insurance problems there. Good old insurance! But now I am really in a fog. My therapist has said she sees me withdrawing from my surroundings. I don't want to be like this - it just seems to be happening. I hate the downward sprial I find myself in, yeah I do know all the "proper" things to do to help myself, like force myself to get up and get moving, go for a walk, talk to a friend, write my thoughts down,......... but what if you have a difficult time just doing those things. Looking around and feeling lost - don't know where I am suppose to be at or doing. Wanting to scream, but no words are coming out. UUUUGGGGGG

I ask you please if anyone else has gone through a similar experience, please let me know - how to get the heck out of it. Want to be back among the living

Islander

Thanks for listening to my rant!!!

((((((((((((islander))))))))))))

Yes I have felt exactly the same as you and it isn't very nice.

I send you courage and gentle hugs. You will get better, bit by bit, you have to find something to grasp at. people used to tell me this, and I wondered what on earth I could find within myself to grasp at. I barely had the energy to get out of bed. It was like being in a mud pit, trying to claw my way out. But if I can do it, believe me so can you. This place and the friends I made here made all the difference to me. Keep talking, posting, listening and you will get there sweetie. I offer my hand for you to grab onto when you need it. PM me any time. Good therapy helps, luckily I found a fantastic pdoc who understands me totally. Please believe in yourself and you will find a way out of this hole.

love, Jinnyann xoxoxoxoxo

[wickedwings]

i'm currently in the same situation you are in. i've been grabbing at anything i could find for the last year and a half. i have so many hobbies, yet been unable to do them. it's like being blind when i know there's good things all around me, but can't experience them, like joy and pleasure.