No answers..

Everyday lately I find myself wishing I would die. Not to help it along or etc but just be done with life. Nobody is really aware. It's ok though bc when they have been in the past, it only angered them.

I hate feeling this way bc there is no rhyme or reason for it and I know I am strong enough to push it off ... but for some reason, part of me right now, doesn't want to push it off. So I sit here battling a confusing but deadly silent battle within myself - and still don't have any answers.

I can relate to fighting a silent, confusing, deadly battle within myself..

I can also relate to ..if I made others aware of this, it angered them..

Thank you for sharing with me - you verbalised well part of what I've been feeling lately

I am sorry you feel this also Fuzzybear ... But it does comfort me to know I am not alone in this kind of struggle, so thank you for sharing.

*hugs*

Count me in also. I do not actually wish to die because I do not want my wife to have to be alone any sooner than whenever I finally do, but I definitely look forward to the fact it will all be over when all is finally over.