[Fuzzybear]

It's clear to me that for many here, life has been cruel and that life, or experiences in life, MI issues etc.. simply sucks.

Reasons why we are still here please post ... you're needed to somehow make this world or our little corner of the world a better place..
(Or am I howling at the moon )

Btw where is little turtle ..

"Stay just a little bit longer" - or maybe this could be a "pledge" thread... to stay alive for the next 24 hours, this is all I can manage right now

I'm here for others Especially Papa Bear

[MickeyCheeky]

I don't feel like I'm doing the world any favor by staying here..

But thank you for the sweet post

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I don't feel like I'm doing the world any favor by staying here..

But thank you for the sweet post

I'm sorry Mickey You are doing the world a favour by staying here.. please believe that - just for the next 24 hours if that's all you can manage for now (it often is only 24 hours for me)

[whisperingskye]

I don't know if I can think of a reason.

But I can try and pledge for the next 24 hours I guess

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by whisperingskye

I don't know if I can think of a reason.

But I can try and pledge for the next 24 hours I guess

Thanks ((((((( whisperingskye )))))))

[Fuzzybear]

.........

[sunnydisposition]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I don't feel like I'm doing the world any favor by staying here..

But thank you for the sweet post

Mee too.. in fact the only reason i still linger around is out of principle. It goes against every fibre of my being to just give up. You ever hear that eminem song, "Till i collapse", Till my legs give up or my heart goes out..its a fight to the end.

[crimsoncat]

im a coward im scared of doing half a job, so 24 i pledge x

[Clara22]

I cannot think of anybody that really needs me or will cry a lot if I am gone. I think I am here because we all have an instinct that tells us to keep ourselves alive. I try to find a meaning to do stuff that could improve our world. But all the people that really loved me are gone

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Clara22

I cannot think of anybody that really needs me or will cry a lot if I am gone. I think I am here because we all have an instinct that tells us to keep ourselves alive. I try to find a meaning to do stuff that could improve our world. But all the people that really loved me are gone

I would really miss you.. I know we haven't met face to face but you're one of the people I think of every day

I love how you don't give up on the search for meaning... and I have taught you something as well.. the beauty of bears

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by crimsoncat

im a coward im scared of doing half a job, so 24 i pledge x

I think you're brave. I hope one day things will improve for you

This is in fact a Pledge Warrior thread, as all here are Warriors fighting the "demon" of Depression and MI issues

Love,
Fuzzy

[sunnydisposition]

it feels so nice. I see a lot of pain here (mine included) but there's also so much love in this thread.

Yes, Little Turtle is so caring and compassionate and he knows alot but is very cautious about "declaring" to much (always sort of emphasizes that there is so much we don't know even though he knows so much). It is hard not to like him and so many others here. I came to this forum a lot more 11 months ago when I was more depressed (now I am just moody). Besides Little Turtle, Fuzzy, Mickey, Clara, Só leigheas, Sophiesmom and so many others said so many nice things that it just helped. I feel gratitude toward so many. I come to the depression forum less (don't really read many posts from people I don't already know) because sometimes when I feel sort of "up", I just relate less so I worry I might be a bit to insensitive. It is so hard to be depressed. I think I would rather be in physical pain than mentally depressed. I really do.....

Fuzzy, as usual, a compassionate and thoughtful thread!

[Trippin2.0]

Why do I stick around?

A basic survival instinct that kicks in even when I downright loath it during desperate times....

That glimmer of hateful hope that tomorrow might be better and I wouldn't know if I don't wake up in the morning...

Fear of burning in hell for all eternity...

Fear of screwing it up and leaving my family a vegetable to care for...

Needing "it" to look like an accident or natural because I could never be okay with my daughter burdened by the knowledge that I opted out...

My loved ones...

Specifically my daughter.

[Fuzzybear]

Also, where is Rohag ... he is extremely wise and compassionate (he may be one of those who reside at times in a cave near me

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Clara22

I think I am here because we all have an instinct that tells us to keep ourselves alive.

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

A basic survival instinct that kicks in even when I downright loath it during desperate times....

These certainly fit my observations of others and of myself.

Originally Posted by Hopingtrying

I think I would rather be in physical pain than mentally depressed.

This too!

In my case, a pledge or a statement of mental determination would contribute nothing to my staying alive through the next 24 hours. On the purely physical front, my body might betray me without consulting my mind. Psychologically, if I fall into one of my "episodes," the "explosion" will not be under my conscious control. I have hurt myself during episodes, but never seriously - not yet.

The best I can say is that during the next 24 hours I will continue to follow my treatment regimen, a regimen that, so far, I can count on to minimize the chance I'll have an "episode."

Part of that regimen is popping in on PsychCentral from time to time.

Thank you, dear Fuzzybear!

[MtnTime2896]

"And I began to envy the headlights driving south
I wanna crack the door so I can just fall out
But then I remember when you packed my car
You reached in the back and buckled up your heart
For me to drive away with"

-TØP, 'a Car, a Torch, a Death'.

The heart in the back belongs to my fiance. I can't end myself without most likely damaging his heart. He means more to me than anyone else. And then you add in others I've made relationships with. People irl and people on here. A lot of hearts reside inside my car, I think. I want to give up but the hearts won't let me.

Honestly, I feel like I'm having a brief moment of lucidity and clarity. I've been having bad episodes everyday, several times a day. I don't know what will happen next; hey, at least my life's not boring. I can promise that in the next 24 hours I can pledge to stay as safe as my sanity will allow.

And thanks for this thread, Fuzzy.

[Fuzzybear]

I will try to reply individually tomorrow, if I don't, I'm thinking of you all. There are some great posts here, thank you

[DechanDawa]

Tomorrow...tomorrow...tomorrow...

[Fuzzybear]

I really appreciate those of you who put so much thought into the posts.

If I could hand this thread over to someone wiser then I, then I would.. unfortunately, like me, people have to hibernate at times..

I agree with the poster who commented on the love in this thread, thank you

(((((( Rohag )))))) and (((((( So leigheas ))))))) and ((( all ))) thank you

Love to all who are struggling

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by sunnydisposition

it feels so nice. I see a lot of pain here (mine included) but there's also so much love in this thread.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Hopingtrying

Yes, Little Turtle is so caring and compassionate and he knows alot but is very cautious about "declaring" to much (always sort of emphasizes that there is so much we don't know even though he knows so much). It is hard not to like him and so many others here. I came to this forum a lot more 11 months ago when I was more depressed (now I am just moody). Besides Little Turtle, Fuzzy, Mickey, Clara, Só leigheas, Sophiesmom and so many others said so many nice things that it just helped. I feel gratitude toward so many. I come to the depression forum less (don't really read many posts from people I don't already know) because sometimes when I feel sort of "up", I just relate less so I worry I might be a bit to insensitive. It is so hard to be depressed. I think I would rather be in physical pain than mentally depressed. I really do.....

Fuzzy, as usual, a compassionate and thoughtful thread!

[starryprince]

I really like this post. Thanks for creating it Fuzzy!

I'm honestly still here because of my mom and because (when my depression isn't really bad) I truly believe that if I work hard enough, my life will get better. That I'll finally get to experience what it's like to not live in poverty, and to know what it's like to be happy. My dream is to be a counselor and part-time musician and live in a little apartment in the city with a cat. I already have my mastered degree in counseling, and I took back up piano lessons, so I'm taking baby steps to get to where I wanna be. I try my best to hold onto that dream. I've come too far to back down now. If I back down, all of that hard work would be wasted.

It's difficult sometimes to keep going, but what other choice do I have, you know?

Sometimes the only thing you can do in life is try. ❤

[Septembersrain]

I'm here for my fiancee. He took me out of a bath tub after I'd slit my wrists. He's a police officer and I think it shook him to his core.

I figure if he stays alive in such a dangerous job, I should continue to try to stay alive too.

[Fuzzybear]

"I know sometimes you (I) want to die"

I reached out to someone today. (Not on here)

On the surface, it went ok.

I was aware how my "social skills" were "ok" in that context..

But I feel more alone.

I feel more that ......

but it wasn't unexpected.

People often have "challenges" with listening.