Pool of Sorrow

I feel like I am in a deep pool of sorrow and I am only treading water wondering when I will sink to the bottom and take my last living breath. I feel like I am in a world that I do not want to be a part of anymore but am stuck here trying to survive. My depression is deep today and for the last several days and I feel hopeless that things will ever get any better. I don't know if I can do this life anymore. Don't know if I want to be a part of this life anymore. I am tired of struggling, tired of feeling so sick inside like a thousand weights drag me down to the bottom again. I fear that I will never make it that my life is near its end and even more than that I almost wish it would end. I just don't want to be here anymore, I can't stand the pain and suffering anymore but what choice do I have. So I wait for death to reach me and maybe it will take me down gently and the pain and sorrow will end for good. I have no energy, no life inside of me. I already feel dead inside and it is only a shell of a body that continues to exist.

Little Mouse,

You so perfectly describe what depression feels like.

I am sorry you are feeling so low at this time.

As long as we still have life, we have hope, but depression lies to us about that and tells us there is no hope.

I notice you are in Florida. Perhaps your spirits will lift some when the temps start to drop around the 1st of October. The heat can sap your energy.

Have you suffered a loss, or perhaps losses, recently?

Hugs,

EJ

(((LITTLEMOUSE))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. do you have a therapist at this time. Your weather conditions may have a lot to do with your depression if you are dehydrated. EJ is correct there has been many illnesses this summer related to heat and mental health issues have been rampant due to extreme temps this summer. Have you had a physical lately? Having a physical may be in order and also calling your therapist to help adjust your medication. Even something as small as drinking too much liquid can offset meds and cause a relapse or make you feel physically or mentally ill. Take care Little Mouse. Best wishes for your recovery. Soidhonia

(((((mouse))))) that's a perfect description of depression.