[MtnTime2896]

It sucks. I'm exhausted all of the time anymore. I don't want to get up and I don't want to fight. I don't want to do a damn thing. All I want to do is sleep. Sure, I lay vulnerable to my nightmares that way, but it beats being punished and threatened to be punished by the nightmares while I'm awake. It allows me to hide away from my fear. My existence.

Why do I continue to live like this?

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

It sucks. I'm exhausted all of the time anymore. I don't want to get up and I don't want to fight. I don't want to do a damn thing. All I want to do is sleep. Sure, I lay vulnerable to my nightmares that way, but it beats being punished and threatened to be punished by the nightmares while I'm awake. It allows me to hide away from my fear. My existence.

Why do I continue to live like this?

You continue to live like this because you are stronger than mental illness and something within you knows it. I know this sounds stupid - but try literally forcing yourself to get up, do some light exercising like walking in the park or etc, have a good breakfast. Do some things that you would enjoy as well.

[Fuzzybear]

I have a bear calendar in my "study" downstairs .. this month is a beautiful young grizzly bear cub. I force myself to get up at some point to eat and for papa bear and for this cub. (And for some friends).. I'm thinking of you (my cave door is open to you too) Maybe we can continue to fight this "beast" of MI - I don't want it to win grrrrrrrrr

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I don't want to do a damn thing.

This is one aspect of my experience of depression. It is as if my ability "to want" is impaired.

I ride on weak waves of inertia that support a few fragile habits.