[passionfruit3]

Well no more er visits I hope.been back and forth for the last two or three days inside.once I was kicked out even.i was told by a lady they would not see me though my life could have been in danger.she told me your eyes don't look like you ingested anything. I walked out of the er crying in the opposite direction of home at 8 o'clock at night not a clue were i was going.one point I thought I'd go to the overpass to conquer my fear of heights by crossing it.i instead ended up at target calling my mom.she was very upset when I told her and took me back up to the hospital were this time they were more than happy to see me.but since no one gave me my medicine plus I'm always like this in hospitals after my mom left I just went nuts.kicking the bed rails,eating plastic,biting wires,ect.they finally gave me a shot and I went to sleep and went home the next morning.
But I found something to self harm with the night after that and knew I wouldn't stop if I didn't get help.i called 911 and said come get me.they told me since I'd done this a second time.it was obvious I needed to be hospitalized and so then I was back at the er and my behavior was the same as the night behavior because I was in pain and no one would give me medicine,no one would let me use the bathroom at first,they wouldn't let me use a phone to call my mom.i had concerns about a wound and the lady just said there are no doctors available in fact it still hasnt been looked at.the self harming stuff.i know i did it to myself so people have that mentality like why are you worried now?but it's not about that it's treat me as a patient with some respect and let me see a doctor if I ask for one cause obviously some part of me must care if I called 911.
I saw another therapist who sent me home and after getting admitted this time didn't work I am so completely and utterly done with er visits if my sister comes homes home we will just have to fight.which was what this was all about avoiding that. I'm so sorry to my mom.😟I thought I'd get help for this problem guess I was totally mistaken.

[DelusionsDaily]

Near me you can call paych hospitals directly, explain the situation and see what they say. Btw...talk to intake. Tell them you have been to the er and they are dismissive of your issues and you wanted to see what they'd say.

[Misterpain]

It sounds like this hospital and staff have no clue about why people self harm or that it is an emergency ,if I were you I would right the hospital's patient advocate and complain about the dip s*** treatment you got, a lack of proper care could cost a person there life .

[passionfruit3]

Originally Posted by DelusionsDaily

Near me you can call paych hospitals directly, explain the situation and see what they say. Btw...talk to intake. Tell them you have been to the er and they are dismissive of your issues and you wanted to see what they'd say.

The problem is the nearest psych hospital ive been black listed from as well.i suppose if i went up there theyd have no choice but the psychiatrist has made it clear he doesn't want to treat me.thats what my Casemanager said.i dont remember what i did honestly.i remember the time before that i was so angry i jumped on the nurses counter and demanded to speak to a social worker cause if i didnt take meds id never come back to that psych ward again hed make sure of it he said.he said i was selfish and didnt care about anyone other than myself.so when he left i cried then i got angry cause they said i would go home and i asked to see social. Worker and they said she wad busy so i jumped on thw realky high counter and the psychiatrist came out and at first told me to jump off it then tried to make me fall by pulling my leg.they finally did get me down but i am blacklisted from that er.i have to go to one far out were my parents cant reach me usually.theres another one closer but id have to find if they have enough room and even then to check myself in wouldnt that just mean they kick you out sooner?

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you've had such bad experiences at your ER. I think they need more training in dealing with MI patients. I hope you are feeling better. You are not alone.