[East17]

....they are more or less likely to act on it?

The depression is getting worse, despite therapy and meds, the sui thoughts are always there. I live through it every day. It's hard to talk about it irl, mainly because I don't want people to think I'm 'crying wolf'....

What is the point in keep talking, it doesn't change anything (for me) although I fully accept that might not be the case for others, some do find talking helps. The recent media coverage of the Heads Together campaign is a positive thing, anything which helps to break down the stigma and silence surrounding MH issues must be good right....?

.... but for those with long term MH/complex issues, does talking about it really change anything? If meds barely take the edge off the feelings and therapy is more maintenance than anything else, if a person can't change their situation or resolve the fundamental causes of their depression - what else is there?

I have read somewhere that you shouldn't give up until you've tried 'absolutely everything'.... but realistically, it is not possible to try absolutely everything.... not all meds will be offered, not all therapies are available / or indeed affordable.

There are still things 'left to try', which I am on various waiting lists for - so I guess I will try to hang on in there until I have at least given them a go; but the will to keep going is fast disappearing and the motivation to keep going gets less with each passing day.

Can anyone else relate?

((hugs)) to anyone who needs them.

[Sunflower123]

I can definitely relate. You're not alone. I've tried so many different medications, doctors, and therapists that I have lost count. I do have a strong support team now. I've lived with suicidal ideation more days then not over the past several years. That is different then being actively suicidal. I've learned to mostly 'surf' those thoughts although I do occasionally reach out for help. My SI has gotten neither worse nor better over the years. Hugs coming your way. Hold on and keep fighting. It will get better.

[Fuzzybear]

I don't know.. maybe. Maybe not. in fact, sadly, imo, likely not..

I'm sorry this isn't more helpful..

[East17]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I can definitely relate. You're not alone. I've tried so many different medications, doctors, and therapists that I have lost count. I do have a strong support team now. I've lived with suicidal ideation more days then not over the past several years. That is different then being actively suicidal. I've learned to mostly 'surf' those thoughts although I do occasionally reach out for help. My SI has gotten neither worse nor better over the years. Hugs coming your way. Hold on and keep fighting. It will get better.

I wish I believed it would get better...
But I'm just fooling myself, best I face reality and accept the inevitable.

[whisperingskye]

I can relate. I don't really have an answer to the question. I have spent most of the last 12 years struggling with suicidal ideation. Have acted on it many times, clearly I'm still here so it never worked.

I am struggling a lot with it lately, I feel like there isn't really support anymore. No one seems to hear me. I am basically forcing myself to carry on for a certain period of time, after that I have permission to give up if I still feel this way.

I have tried everything that has been offered, I know there are more options but I guess not in my area.

Sorry, I just twisted this and made it about me. Just wanted you to know you're not alone

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by East17

I wish I believed it would get better...
But I'm just fooling myself, best I face reality and accept the inevitable.

It is possible to find a strong support system

But, not within the NHS

(Imo...)