[20oney]

I don't like to talk about any of this in the real world, nor let it be seen. Sooo wanted to post and just say the I am struggling at the moment.

Hugs to all who want them

Are you struggling today?

[Weeaboss]

I feel like dying at the moment. Back with my self-harm antics again. A hug will definitely be appreciated.

[20oney]

Originally Posted by Weeaboss

I feel like dying at the moment. Back with my self-harm antics again. A hug will definitely be appreciated.

You can have all the hugs needed! All I ask is that they are returned

[mctone]

Yes, every day is a struggle... just to do the things I have/need to do.
All of y'all

[scatterbrained04]

I can feel myself slipping further down the depression slope every day.

[little turtle]

Originally Posted by 20oney

I don't like to talk about any of this in the real world, nor let it be seen. Sooo wanted to post and just say the I am struggling at the moment.

Hugs to all who want them

Are you struggling today?

yes....I struggle every day about the way psychiatry is f$$ked up.
I cant believe how we are getting screwed

[Sunflower123]

I usually struggle daily with severe depression that I barely survive. Today I have a reprieve for unknown reasons. I offer endless hugs and best wishes to all who are suffering today.

[Rose76]

I feel sick, mentally and physically. I'm in the midst of dental work that involves pain and loss. I'm burned out with meeting someone else's needs. I'm taking too much Percocet and for the wrong reason. Life does not feel good at all.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm taking too much Percocet and for the wrong reason. Life does not feel good at all.

Have you spoke to anyone? Counselor? Friend? Hotline? Doctor?

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Today I am ok - so far. I do not expect that will be the case all day as my fiance's mood darkens though.

I feel like I'm struggling both financially and socially. Deeply stuck in a rut.

[Qwerty Cat]

I am okay today. I am worried about my dad. He is not feeling well and having chest pains. However, I have somebody here to talk to whose messages I really enjoy receiving and look forward to that.

[BrownHat22]

Just exhausted today. I fell like sleeping all day. Nothing is really interesting anymore.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

Have you spoke to anyone? Counselor? Friend? Hotline? Doctor?

Now and then I talk to a sister. We live far apart, but we talk every week or so. I can tell her anything, and I do.

I would never tell any doctor that I take pain pills to ease depression. They would be legally required to cut off my supply, if I did. So I won't put a doctor in that position. And I won't give up something that helps me.

I did years of counseling. There's nothing left to talk about.

My community has a good hotline. I've called them in the past when I've felt bad.

[Ghostgray]

Rough day today here as well. Sometimes the loneliness is worse, sometimes better. Right now I feel as if I will be alone my entire life. Who would want to be with such a sad little failure of a person?

[Onward2wards]

I only have two hands. I would like to raise four.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Now and then I talk to a sister. We live far apart, but we talk every week or so. I can tell her anything, and I do.

I would never tell any doctor that I take pain pills to ease depression. They would be legally required to cut off my supply, if I did. So I won't put a doctor in that position. And I won't give up something that helps me.

I did years of counseling. There's nothing left to talk about.

My community has a good hotline. I've called them in the past when I've felt bad.

I tried to OD on one of my prescrip meds once. My pdoc took me off it for a time, but when he felt it was safe to put me back on it he did - but contracted me to safety with it, because it was literally the only thing that had helped me. So there is some leeway on the particulars of the laws too. The point though is no matter what you need to remain safe.

What kind of support system do you have?

[crimsoncat]

Yes, have been for a while now struggling to stay off alcohol,struggling to,stay alive ,hanging on to see my grandbaby into the world
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[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Rose76, One possibility is to ask your Pdoc to increase the dose or give you a different antidepressant so you won't have to abuse the pain med anymore. Hopefully you do something before you become addicted or have other bad complications.
*hugs*

[subtle lights]

I'm not okay at all...it's like there is a monster inside me...I don't know. I received some medication, I'll start today. But it's all lottery really as my GP has no idea really about 99% of my issues. I didn't want to take anything. I feel I've failed. All the alternative ways, self help etc. I wasn't able to make them work and I've let these internal monsters take over me

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by subtle lights

I'm not okay at all...it's like there is a monster inside me...I don't know. I received some medication, I'll start today. But it's all lottery really as my GP has no idea really about 99% of my issues. I didn't want to take anything. I feel I've failed. All the alternative ways, self help etc. I wasn't able to make them work and I've let these internal monsters take over me

Do you tell you GP your issues?

[eyesclosed]

Me too so your not alone. It seems at this time of the day it's at it's worst.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

I tried to OD on one of my prescrip meds once. My pdoc took me off it for a time, but when he felt it was safe to put me back on it he did - but contracted me to safety with it, because it was literally the only thing that had helped me. So there is some leeway on the particulars of the laws too. The point though is no matter what you need to remain safe.

What kind of support system do you have?

I'm not contemplating self-harm. Dying of a drug overdose can be a prolonged, miserable way to go, so drugs for suicide has bever interested me. (There was some recent prison executions that dragged on longer than anyone planned.) But that's interesting that your doctor reinstituted your med regimen.

I haven't much in way of support. I care for my boyfriend close to 24/7. He's my best friend for a very long time. But he needs me to do everything for him, like today I showered, dressed and shaved him. He has worsening dementia, so talking to him can only go so far. Mainly he just focuses on the television. I haven't seen my family in 3 years because I won't leave him. So I feel like a caged hamster running on a hamster wheel. Everyone who has never been a caretaker has expert advice on how there's all kinds of help available. I no longer bother to try and enlighten these people. Getting good help is difficult for people with tons of money.

I have a girlfriend I used to do a lot with. She calls now and then. But she has told me she can't listen to people talk about illness and caring for a loved one because she was caretaker to her family members and doesn't want to be reminded of what she went through.

Sometimes I think I'ld like to get a dog.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm not contemplating self-harm. Dying of a drug overdose can be a prolonged, miserable way to go, so drugs for suicide has bever interested me. (There was some recent prison executions that dragged on longer than anyone planned.) But that's interesting that your doctor reinstituted your med regimen.

I haven't much in way of support. I care for my boyfriend close to 24/7. He's my best friend for a very long time. But he needs me to do everything for him, like today I showered, dressed and shaved him. He has worsening dementia, so talking to him can only go so far. Mainly he just focuses on the television. I haven't seen my family in 3 years because I won't leave him. So I feel like a caged hamster running on a hamster wheel. Everyone who has never been a caretaker has expert advice on how there's all kinds of help available. I no longer bother to try and enlighten these people. Getting good help is difficult for people with tons of money.

I have a girlfriend I used to do a lot with. She calls now and then. But she has told me she can't listen to people talk about illness and caring for a loved one because she was caretaker to her family members and doesn't want to be reminded of what she went through.

Sometimes I think I'ld like to get a dog.

Why not get a dog?
Have you considered any alternative type treatments?

[Rose76]

Well, like yesterday we were at the hospital all day. Dogs left home alone get lonely and kick up a fuss and disturb the neighbors. And they get sick and vet care can be expensive. But I still see myself with a little doggie someday.

Alternative treatment for what? Like what would that be?