[gonegirl99]

I've been trying to ignore strange ******** thoughts that pop up. Whenever I try to enjoy watching a movie I'll have a subconscious thought like "This isn't real. The actors are just pretending so what's the point of watching this? They know what's going to happen in the next scene and we don't"

And then I'll have to watch some reality based show. It ruins everything. I was in the middle of this new horror movie that just came out and then started thinking about how the actors can pretend to be something they're not. It's really stupid.

The worst part is that I like to write fiction for myself to escape through my imagination. But I've been applying the same thoughts for the past couple of weeks. It's almost torturous. Like my brain will not shut the **** up. Like my brain is purposely trying to ruin the fun for me.

[MtnTime2896]

Sounds like somewhat of an existential crisis which can be cause by depression or can cause depression. "Which came first, the chicken or the egg" sort of situation.

Keep writing here if it helps.

[gonegirl99]

I had a really scary thing happen in 2015 where I was questioning Life itself and was having panic attacks over existence but I've overcome that. Now it's just that I'm nitpicking on normal everyday things that people do like watching movies. I'm trying to ignore it. How do I??

[MtnTime2896]

I'm not sure if I have an answer for that. Whenever I've dealt with something similar, I always kept a pen and small notepad around to write my questions and observations. Once the thoughts were written out, I felt it easier to sit down and follow my normal routine. This worked for me and you could give it a try if you'd like to.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I'm not sure if I have an answer for that. Whenever I've dealt with something similar, I always kept a pen and small notepad around to write my questions and observations. Once the thoughts were written out, I felt it easier to sit down and follow my normal routine. This worked for me and you could give it a try if you'd like to.

Great idea! I'm going to start doing that myself.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by gonegirl99

I've been trying to ignore strange ******** thoughts that pop up. Whenever I try to enjoy watching a movie I'll have a subconscious thought like "This isn't real. The actors are just pretending so what's the point of watching this? They know what's going to happen in the next scene and we don't"

And then I'll have to watch some reality based show. It ruins everything. I was in the middle of this new horror movie that just came out and then started thinking about how the actors can pretend to be something they're not. It's really stupid.

The worst part is that I like to write fiction for myself to escape through my imagination. But I've been applying the same thoughts for the past couple of weeks. It's almost torturous. Like my brain will not shut the **** up. Like my brain is purposely trying to ruin the fun for me.

Ugh. I have a similar thing going on. At some point I started questioning the meaning of everything, of time, of everything I do. I suppose it's a manifestation of depression. The ruminating causes me to feel depressed and anxious, and I feel, too, that my own mind is sabotaging me. The only thing that helps a bit is the technique I use of 'just noticing.' (Link in my sig.)