Disliked?

Hey. Does anyone else feel like they are Disliked by the majority of people? I have social anxiety (along with several other issues, my previous posts have more info) and I can't seem to get over this feeling like even complete strangers hate me. I know it sounds paranoid, it's hard to tell if I am paranoid simply because it feels SO real to me. I go outside and every person I see on the street looks at me in disgust. It's a nasty look, rolling eyes, or murmering somthing offensive to them self's. I haven't quite found out what they say although I've defintly heard "yuck" or "gross" if it's two people walking together, they turn to each other after passing me and laugh. Sometimes one or both of them looks behind their backs and smirk.
It's everyday the whole time I'm out. I'm so reliefed to get back home, where I can feel safe. It makes it really difficult to trust anyone, I always question the motives of people which in turn can make me appear cold. There is obviously something about me, my appearance that makes people hate me.

I hate living like this. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist in a few weeks. I'm in the UK so that's with the NHS and the waiting time is actually very short compared to normal because my doc put in an urgent request.

Does anyone else suffer from paranoia? How do you deal with it? It's making me miserable.

It gets to the point where I feel so hostile and irritable at people staring at me in the street, that I want to shout at them to stop looking at me.

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I'm glad you have an appointment to see a pdoc soon. Hopefully he/she can give you some relief. Would talking with a therapist help you see that your thoughts in that area are distorted? Thinking of you....

I think it could help. I find it strange because of what I am physically seeing. The looks on people's faces the disgust , am I haullucinating or is there an explanation as to why it looks that way?

I'm still off work, and work is where it all started. I've been paranoid over customers for around six months, maybe even longer. It would scare me the amount of customers who stormed off angry, rolled their eyes. I did my best at being friendly it just seemed people automatically labeled me a ***** which is something I don't really understand. It was one customer after the other, with each new customer looking more and more angry. It would make me physically shake with fear and confusion. Eventually I couldn't even look them in the eye. That's what terrifies me about going back to work. I just really hope I will do well on a med and be able to live a normal life.

I think a therapist may be able to help more than "medication"

I wish you the best

I know, I'm not too keen on the idea of more meds, I just worry how long it would take with a therapist to get me to a better place. My concern is mainly due to finance issues. I need money for rent, bills etc. I guess I may have to quit my job and go on temporary disability.

Therapy is what I want for the long term though, I think it is more effective than any med.

Lots of times I feel like I'm disliked and, at times, I don't know why. I try to be as nice as I could. I think about why does it seem like I'm not well liked at where I live and the church I go to. It's not as much of a problem at my job than at the other two places.

I got an email from an old friend that I went to college with. He told me about an ex-friend of mine. My friend still keeps in touch with my ex-friend. It upsets me when he talks about him. My ex-friend decided that he didn't want anything to do with me; and I never knew why. That was over 30 years ago.

About a few years ago I had a very good friend that lived next door to me. When I first met him, I was not crazy about him. But then I got to know him better and liked him a lot more. One time he told me that people in general do not like him. In some ways I could understand that. But he was like a soul mate to me. But then he moved away and ended living in houses where a lot of renters lived. He started to make friends and met a woman who ended up being his girlfriend. He was doing much better socially, and then I didn't like him anymore. He had changed. He seemed much better when he didn't have much going for him. I guess that's the way it really is.