[turnedaround]

I just don't get it. I have had some trouble with depression since my first marriage failed but I have kept it under control with medication and keeping my outlook positive.

I've had a lot happened to me since 2017 came around. At the end of 2016 I was doing really good. I had a girl that I had gotten close to. My kids where doing ok. I had a plan to move forward to allow my daughter to go to UT when she graduated from HS in two years. My mood was ok. I was actually happy.

Mistake

On Jan I get a frantic call from my daughter begging me to pick her up. (Can't go into why) Since then I had to go to court to get custody of my daughter. I got fired from work without warning. I couldn't get unemployment. My mother falls and breaks both arms so I have to move in with her to take care of her. Then to add to the pile, my girlfriend dumps me. She didn't want to be with me since I had so many new responsibilities in my life.

I held on. I worked the problems and didn't let them work me. I won custody of my daughter. My mom is almost recovered. I got a better paying job in the technology industry like I enjoy. I've overcome a lot. I should be proud of myself for what I've done. But I can't. I can't shake this feeling of being worthless and that the only thing I have to look forward to is struggle and loneliness. I am angry with myself for letting my wall down and getting close to someone. She hurt me.

[Sunflower123]

You sound like your problems are getting resolved and you sounded like you've stayed strong. Is the trouble your ex-girlfriend? I'm sorry she let you down. She wasn't worth your time or your emotion. Don't give up...there are diamonds in the rough who will stick by you. Allow yourself to process the hurt. Good luck.

[little turtle]

vent away turned around...you have been through a lot of stress.
you will probably need time to recover all you energy..
vent as much as you want here..you did good

I'm sorry, you'll get through this

[Fuzzybear]

[Mackie51]

You should be proud of yourself. Hang on to that thought even though you feel otherwise. You're doing everything right - acknowledging your emotions, understanding why you feel that way, forgiving yourself, and venting as well. You're doing so well. It's going to be alright, because you're going to be stronger and smarter.

[WeAreArt]

My dear friend, always count your blessings.