[Sunflower123]

Just really doing poorly today. Have texted crisis line and come up with a safety plan. Just feeling really low right now and hopeless.

[coolbeans82]

Hey how are ya....its gonna be OK wanna talk about it?

[coolbeans82]

Hopelessness is a sad lonely place to be....do you have support?

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by coolbeans82

Hopelessness is a sad lonely place to be....do you have support?

Not right now.

I'm very sorry to hear that you are struggling.

It sounds like you have taken some positive steps by texting crisis and coming up with a safety plan. It is good that you are aware of how you feel and taking constructive actions to deal with it. Hang in there, it does get better!

[MatBell]

Hope you get better soon. You deserve it! Good job on reaching out and texting. It'll get better just remember that.

[coolbeans82]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Not right now.

Why not....I hope that you are OK your not gonna self harm or suicide are you.....that would be so bad to do... You are important you will be better

Stay safe girl. Hope you will get through this, and I think you will, hang in there.

[coolbeans82]

I'm not safe I have no one... I pray an hope noone feels like this iam trying just keep trying everyone my hope is fading by the second I'm so alone an close to the edge Jennifer you don't give up i know how ypu feel....I feel so sick an comfused I only needed someone to care when not only did noonr care they have played with my fears an made me see no other out it hurts so much I'm sorry Jennifer plz be safe everyone just plz be safe

[Mackie51]

Hi there, Jennifer and coolbeans82, you have us. Write in, say what you must. Share, don't share. Put on a tantrum. Whatever. It's OK. We're here for you. You're safe here. Every moment you hang on, you're growing stronger.

I've been inspecting my own depression and there are lots of things I do that make it worse:
Blame - I blame myself and I blame others.
Anger - I get angry that it's happening to me and that I can't seem to deal with it
Frustration - because I can't seem to make it go away
Fear - I am actually afraid of the next time it might happen again
Disgust - how can people be so mean
Anxiety - I worry and worry and worry
Tension - I can sleep, my stomach is in a knot
Sad - I feel so alone, that no one cares

And every one of these thoughts make it worse. So, I'm trying to calm myself down and focus only on the moment. When I do that, it's not so bad. I can just stay in the present and let time pass by. I try to distract my thoughts too. I mean, it's alright to feel bad, but I don't want to make it worse than it already is. I like 50s and 60s music. They're so innocent and cheerful. Like the Beatles. And maybe have a Smartie. Read a book. Watch a movie. Have a cup of tea. Anything.

[whisperingskye]

(((((Jennifer)))))

I'm not sure I have much in the way of support, but I do hope you will feel better soon. You are so supportive here, thank you for still trying to reach out to me even when I keep shutting you down. I appreciate it even if it may seem like I don't.

Jennifer--
I hope you are feeling better this morning. Sometimes I do after a good sleep. When I am depressed, I am drawn to depressing music such as some of Pink Floyd's stuff--it makes it worse. Here is a cheerful song:

The Bangles - Hazy Shade of Winter

"...Hang on to your hopes, my friend
That's an easy thing to say
But if your hopes should pass away
Simply pretend that you can build them again...."

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( Jennifer ))))))

Thinking of you.


WC

[lotusblossom19]

Hope you're feeling better now. You're a nice person and you deserve good things. Hope you're safe and your spirits have lifted.

Hugs

[Fuzzybear]

I hope you feel better soon. There are times when I feel like you have been a great support to me; especially with all of those hugs.

[Rina290]

Hi Jennifer and Coolbeans, sometimes the feelings of helplessness are overwhelming and we just feel like running away and giving up. I am lucky enough to have a good friend to whom I can talk and I find that that helps.
We are here and listening. Can you perhaps try andifferent tell us more? You are not on your own. We are one click away.

[MickeyCheeky]

How are you feeling right now, Jennifer? Hope better

[Sunflower123]

I saw my pdoc today. He took me off a medication (I was sleeping 2-3 hours a night) and said that besides the underlying depression I have 'situational ' depressions that push me close to the edge. Hhhhmmm. I feel traumatized today from coming so close and am having panic attacks.

I will be ok. I'm headed to Florida Saturday and I plan to relax. I really, really appreciate your support. It meant so much to me.

[MatBell]

Hope sunny Florida will be good for you

[Mackie51]

Everybody, you are all awesome. Group hug!!!

[aa1994]

The biggest step for me was reaching for help and coming to this website, you are strong and it shows with the steps you've taken to get help. Thinking of you xx

[Turtle_Rider]

Are you OK now?

If you still not, you can tell anything here. We're listening.