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Jun 13, 2017, 09:16 AM
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I won't bore everyone with my life story - it's not that interesting anyway.
Last year, one of my brothers committed suicide. He was the most loving, caring, generous & decent human being. He should not have died. It should've been me. Every bone in my body is horrible. I haven't done anything bad. But if I analyse every aspect of my life - from being a father to work to relationships, I've failed. A massive failure. No one can look at me and say, wow, look at him, he's done alright. Now, this isn't the reason for me going to commit suicide. I feel so guilty that my beautiful brother is not with us anymore and that he didn't deserve to die. By me going isn't going to bring him back I know - indeed, the suffering that my parents are going through will be double when I go, but I can't carry on living with this guilt. I can't speak to my family or even my friends. They'll only try to talk me out of it. I'm a coward. A pathetic excuse of a human. Last edited by sabby; Jun 13, 2017 at 12:44 PM. Reason: Administrative edit |
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Jun 13, 2017, 02:28 PM
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Jun 13, 2017, 02:32 PM
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Hi, It sounds like you have survivor guilt...and depression. Please, please talk with a caring doctor. Best to you.
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Jun 13, 2017, 02:33 PM
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I'm sorry you are going through this now. Have you tried talking to a therapist. Sounds like you could really use some professional support.
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Jun 13, 2017, 02:39 PM
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Condolences on the loss of your brother. That was very traumatic for you and has possibly sent you into a depression. That teamed with survivor guilt has done a double whammy on you. If you commit suicide you are throwing a grenade into the lives of everyone who loves you.
Please see a therapist and psychiatrist. There is hope and healing. You posted here so some part of you must want to live. I'm here if you want to talk. I'm thinking and praying for you. 
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Jun 13, 2017, 04:17 PM
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Hello & Welcome, LondonCabby.
One of your brothers took his own life, and you have powerful urges to do the same -- a story is there, and you might be surprised how many here in these forums would find it compelling. Please make yourself at home.
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Jun 13, 2017, 04:35 PM
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I am sorry you are struggling so much.
It's a poor time to make major life decisions. I know survivors guilt and it can be overwhelming. Please get professional help. If you need a crisis line: 1-800-273-TALK. Please stay safe. WC |
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