[MatBell]

Today and yesterday have been so so hard. Don't know what to write.. I'm so tired of being alive. Nothing gets better. I can have a good day but nothing really gets better in the long run. I keep looking online for the best suicide method. I wish I had some strong pills that I know would do it, like Nembutal. That's all my mind is thinking now.

I don't want to keep back this pathetic creature. Better to stop then, not drag it all out just getting older. I hate this thing I've become. Sorry for being so pessimistic, I just need to write these things down.

[Skeezyks]

[Patagonia]

I've had hours, days & months of time where I've sat on the internet & done that search. So I can understand what you're looking for.
I can't say much more. But I know your train of thought.
Peace

[bubbles00]

I'm in the same position you are. Just searched how to best hang myself not even 5 mins ago before I saw your post. I know how you feel. Sending you positive vibes.

[MatBell]

I don't want to drag it out..
Maybe it's better to get drunk first..

[*Laurie*]

Please take a look at this:

https://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

[Blues47]

Originally Posted by MatBell

I keep looking online for the best suicide method. I wish I had some strong pills that I know would do it, like Nembutal.

I don't think you're really supposed to talk about that here but having already failed with pills my next time is going to be certain and likely a mess. Outdoors for sure.

[emgreen]

This thread is very triggering for me, but I have the option of closing out. I wish I could close out the pain you are all feeling...take care is such a stupid ***** thing to write...

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time and considering ending your life. I feel like by now you think I'm some kind of Suzy Sunshine and I irritate you so I will keep this short. You're not alone. I've been in that position too many times to count. Hang on. It can get better. Sending big hugs.

[sunnydisposition]

Sometimes giving up all hope can set you free. It's a paradoxical philosophy, but it works in some extreme situations. For now, you stop fighting anything and everything. Just be absolutely passive. No chasing after happiness, dreams, rainbows for some time. Hand over the steering wheel to life, and let it carry you. you become a passenger, and life becomes a vocation. It probably sounds like a bunch of theoretical gibberish, but a lot of great people have discovered their path to greatness at one of those pivotal junctures in their life when they gave up any and all hope.

Just a suggestion.

Originally Posted by sunnydisposition

Sometimes giving up all hope can set you free. It's a paradoxical philosophy, but it works in some extreme situations. For now, you stop fighting anything and everything. Just be absolutely passive. No chasing after happiness, dreams, rainbows for some time. Hand over the steering wheel to life, and let it carry you. you become a passenger, and life becomes a vocation. It probably sounds like a bunch of theoretical gibberish, but a lot of great people have discovered their path to greatness at one of those pivotal junctures in their life when they gave up any and all hope.

Just a suggestion.

I would have to agree with that. I think that this was said very well. I have given up on finding happiness myself and feel more at peace with myself than I ever have. Though it's difficult to just settle for not-so greatness sometimes.

For some people, they want to end it all because so much is going against them. There are tragedies that happen that are unbearable. My heart really
goes out to those people.