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I can't figure out whether I feel empty or just black-hole lonely right now--or a bit of both. I was fine last night, but tonight is a completely different story. I don't like these dynamics, they don't seem promising at all. This isn't something to be treated, but eradicated. I'd find a cure myself but I can barely eat the leftovers from yesterday's pot. It isn't much improvement if you can't sustain a relatively normal life, isn't it? What do I know? Ah, just voicing some personal things out there for no particular reason.

The in-betweens are killing me and I don't even know if I'm here or I'm already gone.

[PS. No, not my keyboard. Yes, these commas are killing me.]

I'm sorry you are feeling so low. Keep sharing, it helps. You are not alone here.

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I hope you feel better soon. Sending big hugs.

Keep venting here, if it helps

It doesn't help me. I don't even know why I keep doing it at this point. Human condition, perhaps.

Hi lowpoint

Voicing that there's a problem, either to yourself or/and on here can be one step to moving forward..........I'm not at all saying it's as easy as that...........but without saying/recognising/voicing it, at least to yourself...........well...........and at least on here maybe we can try to offer you support, or at least try to make you feel less alone

So lowpoint, great start!!
And.........not sure you're giving yourself quite as much credit or compassion as you deserve.............you know how hard depression can be, you know that!!
This is seriously not a great comparison...........but..........imagine you had two broken legs but one day you think "I'll ditch the wheelchair and just go and climb that hill".........you're just not in that "place" to do that, are you??
And with depression, it can take "more" until maybe........until maybe that more "normal" life............things are real tough for you right now, yes??!!
But you're still reaching out, which is great........and seriously don't undermine that day/night things were "OK" that is good, so let's look more to the inbetween the comma's hey??
There may very well be "bad" days but if the "good/better/not-so-bad" days can gradually become just a little more or last a little longer..........and you know those days are possible!!
So..........everything you can possibly do, including talking on here, to minimally "ride out" those "bad" days...........and if you can think of anything at all, even the slightest things (and sometimes the "smallest" things are the most important!!) in building on/making a little more of the "not-so-bad" days...........might be a way you find to shut off thoughts on those days.........might be a different/better way you "talk to yourself".........might be the rememberance of hope..........might be finding more self-compassion............might be in feeling more "connected" e.g. in talking on here
But one step at a time, hey??
I know things are tough, very tough, for you right now.........but remember that "right now" bit and that we're here for you in this......you're not alone......things have been better, let's hold onto that, and the possibility of that again and sustaining more of that, hey??



Alison

You're right, Alison. You're best! Thank you everyone. Feel a bit better now. Let's rock this thing.