How the .....

I’m just “no good”

I ran out of medication more than 4 years ago...

Because I’m allergic to the freakin stuff

I’m praying I can end this complaint. A miracle? A fuzzy bear vanishing in a puff of smoke. I’m not going to do anything to end it though, I’m just on this freakin insane carousel

And yet I’m so freakin “weak” that i can’t “cope”

I’m sorry about the anger

(Not about anyone on pc)

Sounds like your really struggling today . I can't imagine how awful that is - to be allergic to meds . that must be frustrating . I'm sorry , I wish I could help more .
Love: Hugs: Love

Thanks hun

This allergy stuff is very ridiculous and boring. I think my body became somewhat messed up by taking Paxil for so long.. depression and anxiety weren’t this consistently severe before I started it, nothing like. And it sucks as for me personally I think a good therapist would have helped me more than meds ...or more than being on meds for so long with a 2 minute a year “review” by a gp..this was what I was told I “deserved” by a shrink

I wasn’t aggressive enough with the doctors, but I didn’t realise then what a mess I’d end up with when something else triggered this allergy to be so much more severe, maybe I’ll make a bed time story out of this. It might send me to sleep

I really must suck. I’ll have to shut up I think or I’ll piss everyone off

As a doctor told me, we all have our crosses to bear

Don't shut up hun. Keep talking . maybe it will help a little. I wish I knew what to say to make everyone feel good .

fuzzy said---------I’m sorry about the anger

why do you have to be sorry about the anger...
join the group...we just don't talk about it..
of course we are angry..
look how the world is..
should we shut up-------noooooooo
but we should not kill ourselves...

keep talking fuzzy bear

I do think meds can mask anger and all sorts of other things. I’m not anti meds, I’m not a doctor But I think they messed me up, amongst other things

I’ve heard of people (uk and maybe elsewhere) being given serious and probably stigmatising diagnoses after a 5 minute “chat” with a doctor.

When doctors make mistakes . Or when they think they can review someone in 2 to 5 minutes a year

I used to really like my GP when I was a child. But I was so shy I barely talked, but he did seem to take some sort of personal interest in me, I wish I had told him about some of the stuff I was going through..

I just don’t know. I haven’t tried the latest med prescribed yet. I’m too scared. I hate the allergic reaction on my face, it brings back body memories as well as being scary as it’s on such a sensitive part of my body....

I don’t know what to say—is it a different class of drug than what you’ve tried before?

I’m hoping for the best for you, Fuzzy

How are you feeling today ?
Love: Love: Love: group hugs:

((((Fuzzy))))

I’m not blaming myself as much today for everything that was ever wrong in all my relationships .. and I’m not blaming myself for everything “wrong” with me. A ridiculous allergic reaction isn’t my fault. Depression isn’t my fault. Being sensitive isn’t my fault. Extreme anxiety isn’t my fault. Parents and family who couldn’t love ... that wasn’t my fault

Have you seen the film Good Will Hunting? It's one of my favourite films. At the end, Robin Williams, the shrink, grabs Matt Damon, his patient, and hugs him and whispers exactly those words...

'It's not your fault.'

I haven’t seen the film. That was a good shrink ...

Thank you for telling me about this film

You often say you're not good with words. May I respectfully disagree in this case? These are very good words. Well said, Fuzzybear!

wow.....its not your fault....its not your fault....its not your fault...

((((fuzzy))))