[psychette]

Its hard for me to get out of bed these days. I sleep 4 or 5 days straight and still feel exhausted. I can't even motivate myself to brush my teeth every day. Im angry with myself for wasting so much time and the little clock in my head just ticks louder and louder and there's this internal push I feel that keeps building up energy but I still do nothing... Every day I waste away and I don't know how to bring myself back to life.

[Dawn7]

I have been feeling very unmotivated as well. It's very frustrating. I know what you mean by the internal push. I am not getting much done either. I do care, so it can be baffling. My energy is so deflated. I am just trying my best to take care of the basics, eating, sleeping on a schedule, etc. Not doing so good with showering, embarrassing but true. Hang in there. Try not to beat yourself up about not feeling well.

[regretful]

Welcome to PC. I have been in a similar spot, and a friend of mine encouraged me to start small, and just do one thing a day, such as folding socks, or making the bed. It was a slow grind, but eventually, I worked my way back. And though I'm facing some tough times again, I still stick to that plan of action - I wish you well in your struggle against this depression. It is lonely at times - this community of people is one that helps stave off those feelings of loneliness, for me, even if just for a brief period of time.

psychette! I second what regretful posted! Small steps, small steps ...

[CepheidVariable]

Are you getting any help? Have you talked to anyone about this? If you haven't done so, you should at least start with your doctor. Sometimes these things (even depression) have relatively straight-forward physical causes such as thyroid or vitamin/mineral deficiencies).

Sorry you're having such a tough time.

[psychette]

[QUOTE=regretful;5895646]Welcome to PC. I have been in a similar spot, and a friend of mine encouraged me to start small, and just do one thing a day, such as folding socks, or making the bed. It was a slow grind, but eventually, I worked my way back. And though I'm facing some tough times again, I still stick to that plan of action - I wish you well in your struggle against this depression. It is lonely at times - this community of people is one that helps stave off those feelings of loneliness, for me, even if just for a brief period of time.

Thank you! Doing what you said helped me realize that if I can push myself to get up and get ready for the day, especially if I do my make up, I am more motivated to take on the day. I've also made a list of things I'd like to do daily.

[psychette]

Originally Posted by CepheidVariable

Are you getting any help? Have you talked to anyone about this? If you haven't done so, you should at least start with your doctor. Sometimes these things (even depression) have relatively straight-forward physical causes such as thyroid or vitamin/mineral deficiencies).

Sorry you're having such a tough time.

I've been dealing with this on my own... I haven't seen a doctor because I don't want to be on medication. I did this once many years ago and no good came of it. I don't have anyone to turn to for support or even just to talk to. The only person I have in my life is my boyfriend and I can't go to him for anything. So I just deal on my own the best I can, but its getting harder and harder.

[psychette]

Originally Posted by Dawn7

I have been feeling very unmotivated as well. It's very frustrating. I know what you mean by the internal push. I am not getting much done either. I do care, so it can be baffling. My energy is so deflated. I am just trying my best to take care of the basics, eating, sleeping on a schedule, etc. Not doing so good with showering, embarrassing but true. Hang in there. Try not to beat yourself up about not feeling well.

It seems we are on the same page with a lot of things... I don't feel so crazy knowing someone else understands what I mean by internal push.

[CepheidVariable]

Originally Posted by psychette

I've been dealing with this on my own... I haven't seen a doctor because I don't want to be on medication. I did this once many years ago and no good came of it. I don't have anyone to turn to for support or even just to talk to. The only person I have in my life is my boyfriend and I can't go to him for anything. So I just deal on my own the best I can, but its getting harder and harder.

I'm sorry for what you're going through. Not having anyone to talk to who understands is one of the hardest parts. I hope you can at least find some support here.

There has been some good stuff on this subforum about getting out of the hole initially. The above posters had good advice. You can also try doing a search with terms like "motivation", "apathy", "coping", and "anhedonia", "getting out of bed", and "showering" (you'd be amazed how often that pops up ). Take some time to browse through the latest posts in the forum. You may be surprised how often you'll identify with something that someone brings up.

And I know it can be hard sometimes, but you *are* entitled to refuse medication and ask for alternate options, such as psychotherapy, counselling, support groups, various coping techniques and the like. You can bypass the doctor and seek these options out yourself if necessary. (Sorry if you've already tried this. We can't know all your history.)

I see you and Dawn7 are new here, so welcome to PsychCentral both of you. Best wishes and take care.