i dont know

I made another post previously on another forum that is really long but now everything is just getting worse. Being around my mom gives me depression and anxiety, her verbal aggressiveness and constant passive aggression towards me, my dad and sister, and my girlfriend have been detrimental on me. My girlfriend doesn't do anything wrong and my mom absolutely despises her. They wont let me go out of the house much, Keep in mind that I am 17. Based off every single kid I KNOW OF, there are underclassmen with more freedom than me along with the fact that everyone in my grade has more freedom. I will be 18 in march (posting this in November) and off to college in less than 10 months. So far, I really feel like I have missed out. I see this stuff that every other couple is doing, like going places and getting to do stuff together but all I am allowed to do is go a couple of the exact same places with severely limited time.
I have to pay for my phone, my phone service, and make the payments on my car. This forces me to have a job, which takes up 80% of all my free time. The other 20% is being forced to be with my parents and the occasional time I actually get to go out. I thought about quitting my job but the issue is: I have to have a car. My parents are so strict that they don't even let family members drive me around. It is my mom and my dad and no one else. Without me having a car, I cannot go or do anything anywhere. I am literally trapped. Being around my mom has started to give me small anxiety attacks and it gives me heart palpations and issues breathing. Not to mention the emotional trauma she creates for me. I want to move out now and ever come back to them but I have no where to go. I am getting closer and closer to losing my girlfriend because my family creates problems in her home life and stress with her too. Any other girl would be long gone after 9 months of this but we really love each other. Its getting really hard and I'm constantly feeling down and depressed. There is this weight on my shoulders every time I am home and I'm getting tired of holding it. Ngl suicide has flashed into my head, at least the kind for attention, like jumping out my 2nd story window. I just despise my mom and what she does. She does nice things for me and is an actual mom but the bad outweighs the good. My dad just perpetuates it and lets her do what she does. He has learned that if he doesn't agree with her then he is going to be torn into just like she tears into me for existing. I am a good kid, never done anything wrong, anything minor gets help by them though and never forgotten and used as a means to control me. I just really want out and I don't know what to do.

You'll be out before you know it, and in 5 or 10 years, you just might look back at this time and wish you could go back to it. All this freedom I have now is killing me!

I'm sorry about what's going on at your household. I'm in a similar situation, as I can't stand talking to my mom about anything or else she gets angry with me. If I mention anything about mental health, she'll just say my problems are because of something else and that there is nothing wrong with me, even though I'm struggling and needed to go to emergency due to these issues.
I know this may seem hard, but you'll be gone in 10 months to college. Just 10 months. It may seem long, I know, but things will get better. I don't know about you, but now that I am away from my mom, things are a lot better. I still struggle with her, because of technology and stuff, but other than that... things will get better.
I hope you and your girlfriend can also figure something out.

Thank you, its getting there but after almost a year its just so much. I'm sorry about your mom, I wish we all had it better.

Update: things are getting worse and my girlfriend is in a lot of emotional pain and is considering leaving, not because she doesn't love me anymore because she does, as she as she has said but because it is inhibiting her health and every day life. I cannot bear that. That my parents are the reason people want to be away from me. I know I am 17 but we are both madly in love, its been 10 months and we only love each other more. I can't lose but I have almost no options left. Is there anything I can possibly do?

I’m sorry you’re in this situation. Talk to her about it and tell her to hold on. Limit her exposure to your parents. Ten months will pass in no time and you can go to a college far away. Best wishes.