[waterknob1234]

I don't know why I feel a little depressed right now. I am doing well in school. I have a 90 average although I do work hard at my studies. I have a part-time job that I enjoy in a local dry cleaners. The work is easy but I can't really make a living at it. I will be finished with accounting school in May and earn an Associate Degree in Accounting, a fifteen year goal. I just have to keep focused and finish school and not give in to distraction. I get distracted so easily. I am hoping I will be a good accountant/bookkeeper when I finish school.
Thanksgiving is coming up and there will be pressure to go to my sister-in-laws house for dinner, but I prefer to go to the big family reunion at my cousin's house. There I get to see all the first cousins I grew up with. Everybody lives scattered all over the country and we only get to come together at Thanksgiving. My son will probably come home to visit from Atlanta with his girlfriend. My house is a mess and I need to get it cleaned up.

There is a job fair at school tomorrow and I am contemplating whether or not to go. On the one hand I sort of want to get started in an accounting job now. On the other hand, I need to have time to do my schoolwork. I have two reports to write by November 20.
I have stopped watching and reading the news because it depresses me. People get shot in church of all places. The politics is horrible out there. This group hates that group and vice-versa. Never in my 55 years have I seen such mess.

[waterknob1234]

I am also so tired!!! I have so much to do I have to stay up.

[Sunflower123]

I’m sorry you are having a tough time. I just wanted to show my support and to say kudos for your hard work on going after one of your goals. Sending big hugs.

[ErgoArtemis]

I am sorry if you feel that way. I think a change of scenery is your best bet to alleviate depression. Maybe a trip to some very poor countries will change your perspective and put you back in the ropes. Going to indigenous tribes in remote places are good, too! You will see a different perspective in life; no politics, no petty bickering, no oversexed music videos, no aggressive marketers - just pure attachment to nature and what she gives us. But first, hire a professional cleaner for your house and have it redesigned or re-arranged to your suprise.

[Winterbritt]

Congrats on that degree!! What an accomplishment.

I also do not watch the news. I'm not sure that human hearts are designed to bear the weight of every tragedy on the planet. It's as if the modern world assumes all sadness on earth is everyone's responsibility and happiness is just a personal problem. I prefer to see the world with my own eyes. When you do that, it tips the scales back to reality. Terrible things happen sometimes, but they are far outnumbered by good things, and extremely outnumbered by just ordinary moments. Think back before the invention of radio and television, we'd never even have the opportunity to know about most of the tragedy that's at our fingertips 24/7 now. I keep myself balanced by acknowledging that there is tragedy but it isn't always MY tragedy.

I think about the quote "Here is the world. Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Do not be afraid." I actually keep a list in my bullet journal under that heading where I write down the things that my heart just cannot process. If something's still hurting me after a few days, I just write it down. For example, "mason dying." And then I let it go. My mind quits turning it over and over. For some things there are no explanation but the days don't stop coming, and perhaps explanations for those events will reveal themselves in time.

I don't know if you've ever tried it before, but purposeful thinking has been really helpful to me. I've done so much work on my beliefs and my thought patterns that I am not depressed. I'm actually really happy. There's some examples on my blog under the retrain your brain category. I believe that even if depression is present, harnessing and directing your mind where you want it to go can stop you from suffering and show you joy and happiness instead.

Good luck to you and hugs!!!

[Fuzzybear]

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