I've been wondering whether I have depression. I seem to get up in the morning quite easily and I feel generally happy. I have suicidal thoughts but they come and go. I just feel like people have been telling me I have depression or there's something wrong with me. I may have mild depression but I can cope well with my life. I've been to doctors countless amount of times and they'd prefer for me to refer myself to counselling or give me pills. I wish I could get a diagnose since these problems keep popping up. It's frustrating. In my mind, I've had people tell me there's something wrong with me. I can easily live my life happily. they don't know me personally so how do they know? It's hard to explain. It's partly my mum's narcissistic abuse that make me blame myself for everything and make me feel like I'm better off dead.

[MickeyCheeky]

I can partly relate. However, if you have suicidal thoughts, I'd say that this is not a subject to be taken lightly.. even if it doesn't seem like much at the moment.

Personally I have had periods of severe depression that I didn't even see until others told me. One time 5 different friends told me that I should consider seeing a therapist before I realized what was going on. If its friends who are concerned, talking to a doctor never hurts. Yes its possible to be ill and not know it.

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I can partly relate. However, if you have suicidal thoughts, I'd say that this is not a subject to be taken lightly.. even if it doesn't seem like much at the moment.

There's no reason for me to be here.

Originally Posted by happycheeks

There's no reason for me to be here.

I guarantee you that there is a reason.

I just always knew I was.

[Loose Screw x 2]

My mother was very obviously mentally ill and it was proven to her many times yet she refused treatment of any kind for it. "It doesn't rule my life..." she would say but, that was a lie. Nothing that I said would change her attitude about it. She also had a phobia of medications.

Originally Posted by happycheeks

I've been wondering whether I have depression. I seem to get up in the morning quite easily and I feel generally happy. I have suicidal thoughts but they come and go. I just feel like people have been telling me I have depression or there's something wrong with me. I may have mild depression but I can cope well with my life. I've been to doctors countless amount of times and they'd prefer for me to refer myself to counselling or give me pills. I wish I could get a diagnose since these problems keep popping up. It's frustrating. In my mind, I've had people tell me there's something wrong with me. I can easily live my life happily. they don't know me personally so how do they know? It's hard to explain. It's partly my mum's narcissistic abuse that make me blame myself for everything and make me feel like I'm better off dead.

The most important thing about health and mental health is how you feel. We can see many things in each other. Have you asked the people what they see wrong in you? Have you been to a counselor or a therapist to talk about it?