[MtnTime2896]

My family needs me. My little sister attempted. And my friends are messed up so bad they have flashbacks.

I'm not doing so good. And I'm not sober. But when I come back from my friend's party, I have to be the one who has their crap together. I have to be the one who everyone can count on.

I don't get a break. I just want a break.

[MickeyCheeky]

You sure have a lot on your shoulders. I'm sorry. Remember that taking a break from the others is not selfish at all - you absolutely need to take care of yourself as well. So if sometimes you don't feel like helping others, don't feel guilty about it..

Say "no" to parties where their is alcohol whenever possible. Being isolated is better than being around temptations and negativity.

Also, I am so sorry about your little sister and the hardships your family has faced. You are probably drinking to drown the pain. Pain sucks but we have to work through it and it is not easy !!!

[lotusblossom19]

Sorry to hear these events have occurred. That is a lot to carry. We all need a break at times, though. Even the strongest person can only carry so much on their shoulders before they break down. It's good to want to help others, but you help others best when you have first nourished yourself. The more water in your cup, the more you can pour into the cup of another. Finding a balance is good. I know how difficult it can be though, because I've struggled with it myself. I hope things get easier for you soon.