[Tracy21]

I just dont know how i feel. One minute i'm all upset and unhappy for no real reason, and the next i feel fine. Whats that all about? I want to see a T, but i'm also scared too. What if i'm inadequate? What if i say the wrong things? What if they just think i'm some big whiner and see me like the rest of the world does?
I'm just so damn uneasy and upset and ... part if it can be attributed to situational factors, but some times i wonder ... what if there's actually something fundamentally wrong with me?
I wake up in the morning and feel like a failure. I look in the mirror and i see a big fat failure. I get upset and then i only end up becoming more mad at myself for being upset.
I'm sick of crying myself to sleep. Hating myself. Hating who i will undoubtedly become if i keep on living like this. If you can even call this living .
I don't know what to do. I feel like just giving up on life, myself, and the world.

[stefano]

Do see the therapist, or even better a psychiatrist. It is not an exam, you can't say the wrong thing, you have no performance to achieve. Believe me, your symptoms can't be just dismissed.

[kebsfroggy]

If you think you need to talk with a T then you should do it. Don't be discouraged if the first T you meet with isn't for you. Sometimes it takes a few trial and errors before getting the perfect fit.

I know how impossible it is but don't be so hard on yourself. You are a very valuable person here at PC. There are a lot of friends around to support you.

As for the tears.......I buy tissues by the case. Anytime you need some just let me know.


Take care

[Tracy21]

No I don't see a T anymore ... I use to see one a while ago and her and I hit it off really well... but because of her own personal circumstances I no longer see her. I've tried going back to see other T's but it just doesnt seem to be working. I guess its probably about time i try and find another though ...

Thanks for the encouragement both of you ....
((hugs))
Tracy