I am a failure

Sigh, this job search has been fruitless. I know this time of year sucks at finding employment but I really must find work within the next two weeks. I have been searching since early December and all my applications and resumes have come to nothing.

In addition the the fear of the ramifications of not finding work I am really feeling down about myself. I feel like a complete failure.

you'll find something.

((((hugs)))))

what job are you hoping to do?

Job hunting is one of the most frustrating things in the world. I hate the phrase "we are looking for the right fit". When I would hear that my immediate thought would be "I guess that means I am out of the running". I never received a job offer after being told that. It is easy to feel like a failure, especially if you have been through this situation before. You see people with jobs and holding them for years. The first thought you have is "why can't that be me". I have said many times that I am always congratulating people on their success. Why can't people be congratulating me?

You are not a failure. You are trapped by circumstance. It is not your fault. It is easy to come up with a long list of reasons why you are a failure. I do that all of the time. In hindsight we are all millionaires. Sometimes all you can do is to ride through the situation. You can do that. It is hard, but you can.

Thank you for the kind words. Just in from freezing my you-know-what off in the cold which only makes this whole thing more miserable. Five more applications in person today five more online.

This is so demoralizing.

Shattered Sanity > in answer to your question I suppose I can say pretty much of anything. Aside from my years of military experience which is 25 years old, the only work I've had has been Retail and Retail Management. I won't do management ever again which pretty much leaves me at age 51 with no job skills.

Adding to this disastrous job search is that I don't have a car. So so so many positions I have been interested in demand a car as condition of employment.

I have decided to remove my Education from my resume as I figure the information is a giant red flag pointing to my 'mature' age. Is it possible then that the inclusion of this has been a negative?

You've only been job hunting for a relatively short time so stay positive. Maybe you have skills that would enable you to go self employed. Good luck.
Yep ive heard of people removing education from CV's/resumes but then I think employers would be suspicious of what you've got to hide so hmm not sure if that really works. Maybe just don!t put dates.

You are not a failure! You are out there giving it what you've got and that is nothing short of respectable.

I agree with the above, keep your education but remove the dates. Military experience is impressive, regardless of when you served. Management experience is also good, even if you don't want to be a manager. It shows that you are self directed, can work under pressure, are honest and reliable and so much more.

Keep putting those resumes out there. Its going to pay off. Also don't under value yourself okay?

On a lighter note, I have spent all morning completing a number of applications on line. I have been encountering the most ridiculous of questions and assessments. Questions like: Do you feel rules are made to be broken? Do you feel you should be accomodated additional break time for smoking? Do you wait to be told to do something or do you find tasks requiring completion. Hello? If you don't know the correct answer to such questions you have no business even applying. At lease this has been highly entertaining, haha.

But I come to something a little more serious and it sounds to me there may be an argument as to the legality of it....

Several applications have demanded to know if you are on social media and want you to list off the links to all your profiles, blogs, and forums you participate in. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) How can they even ask that?

Back to the problem at hand. The level of Depression is a better than yesterday which was really, really, really quite low. I was anxious too and took a few 25mg Seroquel which seemed to help. I also made myself get up and out of bed and going early this morning rather than laying in and feeling sorry for myself.

I'm happy you're doing better. Remember that you're not a failure - you're doing the best you can and that's the most important thing.

I’m doing it too having just been fired. I got that job out of the blue, just another application. But it wasn’t me at all. So now I’m just relieved to be away from it.

I am NOT a failure! I am the Little Engine that Could! I thought I could. I knew I could!

What a reversal of fortune.

After slogging and slogging away with resume's and applications I finally landed myself an interview. Whew! It was terrifying to go to it but it went really, really well. I am being recommended for a final interview.

I am now experiencing a slew of different emotions. Exhaustion for one. Being so anxious and full of depression is tiring. All that energy is suddenly being released and I am physically and emotionally exhausted. But I am now feeling to that things are turning around. I feel as though there is potential for goodness in my life instead of such negativity.