[whisperingskye]

Depression got the better of me today. It’s becoming a regular occurrence. My brother and family were round today, but I hid in my room. I love them, and my niece is adorable, but today I couldn’t face it.

I was meant to go to my work Christmas do tonight as well (yes, I know Christmas was a month ago, but retail means we don’t have time in December) but I couldn’t bring myself to go. I was looking forward to it, and fully expected to go, but changed my mind at the last minute. I doubt anyone will be surprised as I haven’t made it to a single work event since I started over a year ago...

I just want to hide from the world. It’s too much to handle lately. I know I have to work tomorrow, and I imagine I’ll force myself to go, but i really just want to stay home in bed. I only work three days a week and even that seems too much right now. Two days last week I very nearly called in sick, and still wish that I had.

I know these aren’t good signs, I know how this goes. And I still don’t know how to change it. It’s like I’m just standing back and watching the inevitable spiral downward.

[Wild Coyote]

I recall those days of trying to make it to "work socials" and really preferring to stay in bed. I'd wanted to hide, too. Still do want to, often.

Does anything about this signal the need for a med adjustment for you?

I hope it gets easier.


WC

[Skeezyks]

Well... this all sounds pretty familiar to me too. Unfortunately. I don't know if there is a way to change it. From my perspective, I think it may be more a matter of accepting that this is the way it is & figuring out ways to work with & around it as much as possible. For many years I just forced myself to do what I needed to do. Now I'm retired & no longer working. Plus I have no extended family. So I just keep to myself.

[whisperingskye]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I recall those days of trying to make it to "work socials" and really preferring to stay in bed. I'd wanted to hide, too. Still do want to, often.

Does anything about this signal the need for a med adjustment for you?

I hope it gets easier.


WC

My care coordinator did mention that there was room for meds to be increased if necessary. I see her again on Tuesday so we’ll see what happens then I guess.