not like being a patient in the hospital, but miss it in general.

their are some nights I get really emotional because I'm not in hospital, and I don't know what's going on their

what are the nurses doing. what are they eating for food on the ward?. what are they watching in reception.

it's almost like I wish I was a robot, and could somehow connect to the hospital to see what's going on.

has anyone dealt with this and how do you cope with it?

Do you mean a psychiatric or medical hospital? I have never been in a psychiatric hospital as a patient, except to go to one where a group meeting was held. I've been in a hospital for cancer treatment that I had three years ago. I was treated nicely but I don't miss it at all. I hope that I will never have to go to the hospital again for any reason.

There are times when I have "hospital fantasies". It's not a nice feeling. It's like a feeling of dread. Though I have heard that some had great memories of being in a hospital. I guess it's because they just rest and get served.

Originally Posted by will19

Do you mean a psychiatric or medical hospital? I have never been in a psychiatric hospital as a patient, except to go to one where a group meeting was held. I've been in a hospital for cancer treatment that I had three years ago. I was treated nicely but I don't miss it at all. I hope that I will never have to go to the hospital again for any reason.

There are times when I have "hospital fantasies". It's not a nice feeling. It's like a feeling of dread. Though I have heard that some had great memories of being in a hospital. I guess it's because they just rest and get served.

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one of the problems I have is moving on.

to put it in to context,

if I went to a theater to watch say... I don't know, for example sake- phantom of the opera, and after the show I left the theater and went home. the show repeated the following few days, with 2 performances on the weekend

I'm the type of person who would say:

how dare you show that performance without me. I'm not around, you need to close the theater

the same goes for this hospital example.

the fact that life on the ward continues after I've left, really really bothers me.

I just struggle to move forward and it's like when I do get back to where I need to be, I have lots to catch up on- of course, I probably won't (what's their to catch up on for example in the same show?)

but it bothers me still that life continues