[Bookworm257]

Hi. I had depression 2 years ago. It lasted 6 months but I was suicidal, crying myself to sleep and totally miserable. Since then it's only come back once, for a month. But something just happened that could make it come back fast. Im not gonna say what it is. Just, I really ****ed up. Over one big f-up, I feel like taking some money and running away (don't know where to), or jumping in front of a car tomorrow. It's not as big of q f-up as it probably seems, but I just lost a hell of a lot of my parents trust. Why do I all of a sudden feel like jumping in front of a car? I feel like I could do it tomorrow. I haven't felt depressed in a while, so to suddenly feel suicidal is very dangerous and not at all healthy. I feel like I am in a dangerous state right now. I can't imagine tearing apart their lives if I die but at the same time I just feel an urge to jump. Over one thing! What the hell?!

[Wild Coyote]

Take some time to calm down and get some perspective.
Jumping in front of a car only makes a bigger mess and involves innocent people. Why can't you talk this over with your parents?

There has to be a healthier and a more productive course of action than jumping in front of a car.

Think this through.


WC

IMO going to thoughts of jumping in front of a car (I have had thoughts like this in the past) if a bad coping mechanism and depression talking to you. It is easier to imagine this than the incident that is making you feel miserable. We can't avoid all our unpleasant thoughts and talking about them and acknowledging them fully (understanding your role and others role in the incident) is necessary or we can get stuck. Sorry you are struggling.

[MickeyCheeky]

Try to calm down. In the other thread you said you tend to lie a lot. Is this what you're referring to? I think there must be another solution.

[Bookworm257]

Originally Posted by Hopingtrying

IMO going to thoughts of jumping in front of a car (I have had thoughts like this in the past) if a bad coping mechanism and depression talking to you. It is easier to imagine this than the incident that is making you feel miserable. We can't avoid all our unpleasant thoughts and talking about them and acknowledging them fully (understanding your role and others role in the incident) is necessary or we can get stuck. Sorry you are struggling.

No way I'm talking to my parents, they're gonna say I'm attention seeking or pity seeking

[Quiplash]

Originally Posted by Bookworm257

No way I'm talking to my parents, they're gonna say I'm attention seeking or pity seeking

If you don't want to talk to your parents, do you have a close friend or a counselor that you can talk to about how you are feeling?