[pixiedust72]

I felt like I was moving up for a while. I told my therapist this yesterday and it seemed like she thought I was ready to stop therapy. We didn't really have anything to talk about and I haven't had many sessions with her so I'm still not really comfortable talking. But yesterday and today were the worst days I've had in weeks. It's like the universe knew things were getting better and had to ruin it. These days have made me feel like I'm not ready to deal with my life like I thought I was. I was barely getting through and these days prove to me why I should've ended it when I wanted to. I don't really know what to do. Because I don't really feel comfortable talking about this with my therapist even if I were to get another appointment. Sorry for the ramble. Usually I feel like I maybe can't get through my life and today I feel like I know I can't.

[Candy1955]

May I ask why you are so sure?

[pixiedust72]

Originally Posted by Candy1955

May I ask why you are so sure?

Because I'll always have to deal with these bouts of depression. It causes me to be unable to fulfill my dream because I have a lower capacity for life than others. I'm realizing that everything will be harder for me in life and that one bad thing can set me off and send me into a bad place for days.

[Candy1955]

So what do you do on those bad days? I'm not being snarky; I have really bad days and lately worse than usual. I am genuinely interested in how to cope.

Originally Posted by pixiedust72

Because I'll always have to deal with these bouts of depression. It causes me to be unable to fulfill my dream because I have a lower capacity for life than others. I'm realizing that everything will be harder for me in life and that one bad thing can set me off and send me into a bad place for days.

Same happens with me

Originally Posted by Candy1955

So what do you do on those bad days? I'm not being snarky; I have really bad days and lately worse than usual. I am genuinely interested in how to cope.

Me too. I feel guilty on days when I lie in bed most of the time and cant follow my usual routine. And afterwards I generally have a downward spiral for several days before I start to feel a little better. I dont know how to cope with my depression and lethargy on these days.

Originally Posted by pixiedust72

Because I'll always have to deal with these bouts of depression. It causes me to be unable to fulfill my dream because I have a lower capacity for life than others. I'm realizing that everything will be harder for me in life and that one bad thing can set me off and send me into a bad place for days.

I absolutely understand this. I have bipolar disorder and it's a life long condition. I'm always going to be fighting my own brain. I will tell you this though: Its worth it. The bad days are so hard. Be kind to yourself as much as you can.

[pixiedust72]

Originally Posted by Candy1955

So what do you do on those bad days? I'm not being snarky; I have really bad days and lately worse than usual. I am genuinely interested in how to cope.

Don't know. I guess I come here.